4/8/2019
“In morning meditation, see yourself killed in various ways, such as being shredded by arrows, bullets, swords, and spears, being swept away by a tidal wave, burned by fire, struck by lightning, dying in an earthquake, falling from a great height, or succumbing to overwhelming sickness.” – Yamamoto Tsunetomo, 17th-century samurai
Its been a while since I posted. I have just been trying to catch up with school. Every day a yellow spot where there was a bruise disappears. I can’t believe I survived. Maybe its a miracle. I don’t know. Wouldnt want to go through that again for a million dollars.
I have developed a little bulge in my abdomen. My first thought was that I am pregnant. It would have been the night Mark and I were outside. I couldn’t be though because I don’t believe a baby could have made it through that beating I took. If it did it couldn’t possibly be right. I didn’t have hardly any bruises on my abdomen but a lot everywhere else. Last week I wasn’t peeing a lot and thought maybe I lost one of my kidneys. I made doctors appoint to check everything out. So I guess we will see. My thought is the problem with my stomach was from the beatings and there is a problem with my uterus.