Scott spent all day with Carlson. They decided to have the 6 men’s ids and a lot of belongs shipped to South America and then dropped in the jungle from a helicopter by one of Carlson’s contacts there. That way someone would find them. They found out who all six men where and couldn’t believe they were able to eliminate them. These men were known for completing their mission every time. At least they will not be killing anyone else. They were still trying to find out who sent them. At dinner Scott found everyone in the dining room. Scott sat down next to Mom and ask how she was doing. She said, good but we all would be better if Angel was here. We all miss her. Scott didn’t answer. He hugged Hunter and she wanted to sit in his lap and help him eat his dinner. That was fine for him. It was helping get over the stress from the mission. Scott had always handled everything himself and this was the first time he had to depend on a team. It was going to take some getting use to. When the help brought his food he asked if he could have some wine. Mom said she would take a glass also. They brought the wine, two glasses and poured some from the bottle. Scott thanked the man. Scott said to Mom, this is good. Mom agreed. Scott asked Serena how she was doing? She said, she had been doing really well lately. Scott told her he had too many things to see to and Paul was going to help him by taking her to the clinic to see the doctor and anything else she needed. Serena said, ok. Do you think Angel will be back soon I really miss her and so do the kids? Scott didn’t know what to say. He said, I will look into that tomorrow and see if I can find out anything. Mom under her breath went Ha. Scott heard her and knew she knew something. At dinner Scott finished off the bottle of wine. When everyone was finished he said he was going to retire to his room that it had been a long day. He went in his room, kicked off his shoes, turned off the light and fell on his bed. He was almost asleep when he started thinking about Angel. Would she marry him? Could he make love to her? He wanted her so bad. Matthew is not coming back so she is going to have to except that. Maybe if he started romancing her. Tomorrow he was going to bring her candy. She can’t turn down chocolate. I would make a good husband and father. I would be the best. Just think I would already have 4 kids. I already love Hunter and the baby. In the morning I will get up, go to breakfast, go to class and then go visit her with candy. Then I will start going to the gym in-between what Carlson wants me to do. I can win her over. I need to talk to Carlson about when I should tell her and Mom, Matthew is not coming back? Scott fell asleep dreaming about marrying and making love to Angel.
I woke up this morning about 7am. I guess I have broken the 4 or 5 o’clock thing. I tried to get out of bed and was having trouble because the weight of the babies. I managed to grab my harness on the way to the bathroom and put it on while I was on the toilet. I still had trouble walking but it was better with the harness. I will wear it to bed from now on but will make it real loose. That way if I have to get up I can just tighten it. I don’t know what I am going to do? I have the rest of Sept. I have October, November and December. I might have to start using a wheel chair to get to the bathroom. I got off the toilet and to the sink. Washing my hands and face. I was really missing Matthew and wished he was here. I decided to fine him. I shut my eyes and start a search. I should be able to fine him. We have such a strong contention. I searched around the temple. I listened. I thought about jumping there but what if I couldn’t get back. Anyway I always find the person before I jump. I listened carefully. But nothing. I decided to start over and work out from the temple. I listened and searched. I called in my mind for Matthew. I kept working out farther and farther and nothing. I opened my eyes and thought I can find someone no matter where they are in the world. I can find him. Maybe he went to Japan. I shut my eyes again. I pictured a map of the world. I focused on Japan. I looked at Japan and could see it. I called Matthew but nothing. I kept looking. Maybe he was kidnaped and was in Russia. I focused on Russia. I looked and called over and over but nothing. My knees got weak when the thought hit me that Matthew must be dead. I can find anyone but not if they are dead. I opened my eyes. I felt weak. I thought I have to get back in bed before I end up on the floor. Holding on to the walls I carefully made it to the bed. I got back in bed but the tears had started and I couldn’t stop. I was sure Matthew was dead. The guard came in and asked if I was ok. I tried to wipe the tears away as I said, I think my blood sugar is low. Could you get me some orange juice? He went out and called someone. I tried to concentrate on something else. On Hunters laugh, on how cute the babies were going to be. Just anything but Matthew. I turned on the TV and tried to find something funny. They guard came in with the orange juice and I drank it right down. The whole bottle. He said, if you want anything else let me know. I am here to help. I said, thankyou so much. I think I will be ok now. I will try to rest until breakfast. He said, ok. I am going to leave the door open in case you need something. I shook my head yes. I found a show Mr. Ed about a talking horse. I thought I am going to have to find something to concentrate on when problems occur. Maybe I can find a joke? I buzzed the guard. He came in and I said, could you get me some joke books. He said, sure. Anything else. I said, No thankyou. The rest of the day I slept, ate and watched tv. I was hoping for a better tomorrow. The guard texted Scott that I wanted some joke books.