Today was so great. I woke in the middle of the night and Matthew was sleeping with a baby in his daddy shirt. That was all he had on. I had trouble going back to sleep. I just wanted to look at him. He is so wonderful. I was so in love. I felt like a teenager again. I finally shut my eyes and went back to sleep. We all went to breakfast together and then Matthew went to work. At dinner he said during the weekend he might have to work and not be able to go to breakfast or dinner. He said, he was sorry but the new training center was taking a lot of his time. I told him not to worry. I understood. The nurse gave me a manual on infant massage. Mom and I tried it in the afternoon. The babies seemed to really like it.
THURSDAY JANUARY 18
I woke around 2am. Matthew was handing me a baby. They were really hungry. After I feed one I feed the other one. Matthew put them in their beds and came back to bed. He took my hand and kissed it. He was looking at me with those loving eyes. He said, feel up to some loving? I said, yes. He started kissing me and rubbing me down there. His hand felt so warm and manly. He put his tongue deep in my mouth. I was starting to loose myself. He then moved to my neck. He felt so good. This was really nice. He move down kissing my breast, my stomach until he got between my legs and started kissing my colitis. I couldn’t open my eyes. It wasn’t but a few seconds and I came. I came really good and it felt great but it was different than before. I thought that it felt really good and the difference in the feeling must be due to the delivery. Matthew must have known I came because he stopped and looked puzzled. He then put himself inside me. It felt really good and before I knew it he was done. He kissed me several times and then said, I better clean up and let you go back to sleep. He asked if I need to go to the bathroom? I said, no but could us some tissues. He handed them to me and kissed me again. He said, I love you very much but I better let you go back to sleep. I said, I love you too. He went off to the bathroom. I cleaned up and I shut my eyes. I thought that was really nice but why did I come before it started and why there wasn’t any build up before I came. I though it was getting better. Maybe its just because of delivery. I shut my eyes and went to sleep.
Matthew woke me and asked if I felt like getting up. I said, yes. I have to take a shower before breakfast. He said it was 11am and he could have them bring lunch to the room if I wanted. I said, 11am? He said, yes. I couldn’t get you up. When I tried you would just said, I am too tired. I just can’t. I sat up and said, I don’t remember. My breast hurt because the kids were very aggressive last night. They woke up very hungry. I can get up and go to lunch. He said, ok. Then I can go to work. I stayed home because I was worried about you. I said, ok. I am fine now. I went and took a shower. We went to lunch but Matthew didn’t stay. He gave me a really nice loving kiss and said, he had to go. Mom was glad to see me and asked how I was feeling. I said, fine now. I guess I was just very tired. When I went to sleep Matthew hadn’t made it home. I missed him.
FRIDAY JANUARY 19 I woke around 1:30am and had to pee. Matthew wasn’t in the bed but was sitting on the floor and Sergeant was laying next to him. The dog saw me and sat up. He then nudged Matthew with her nose and Matthew opened his eyes. He said, are you ok. I said, yes. I just needed to pee. He said, We are just watching the kids for you. I said, ok. I will pee and get back to sleep. I went back to bed and asleep. The next time I woke Matthew was asking if I could get up to go to breakfast. I said, yes. I felt really good this morning. We got ready and went to breakfast. After breakfast Matthew went to work. When Matthew came to dinner he told everyone that Serena had her baby boy and he was 8 lbs. 3 ounces. She told Matthew she wanted everyone to come visit. Matthew went back to work. He said, he just came because he wanted to see how I was doing. At bed time Matthew wasn’t home yet and a baby nurse came. She said, Matthew called her. That Matthew would be late. I slept good inbetween feedings.
SATURDAY JANUARY 20 I woke up around 2am. and the bed was empty. It left me with a lonely feeling. The baby nurse said Matthew wanted me to tell you weekends are very busy right now. In the after noon Mom and I went to see Serena and Jean. We had my new babies with us so Serena could see how much they had grown. Jean was looking good. Serena let me hold her baby boy. He was so beautiful. With these awesome royal blue eyes. Just like Jean only bluer. I let Serena hold my kids and we talk for a long time. Jean even wanted to hold one of the kids. Mom brought a bunch of baby clothes for Serena. Mom said, I can’t wait until you two can come to breakfast and to visit. Hunter has grown so much since you saw her last and Wyatt too. Jean said, he didn’t know when that would be. That they might let them go home Monday but he has a lot of physical therapy before he can go visiting. He was hopping we would come to visit a lot until then. Serena’s mom Sarah was there and we talked with her awhile and she held my babies all so. She said, she was going to take good care of the couple when they came home. I understand she is a good cook. I was a good day even if I didn’t see Matthew.
SUNDAY JANUARY 21 I woke around 2am and the bed was empty again. It was Sunday so I thought he might show soon. The weather was great today so we spent a lot of time on our patio. Mom bought Hunter and Wyatt a little log cabin. Hunter loved to go inside and open the window. Then say peek a boo to Wyatt. He would laugh and go to the window and she would shut it again. I was so happy and I think Mom is too. When I went to sleep Matthew wasn’t home. I was really missing him.
MONDAY JANUARY 22 I woke around 2am and the bed was empty. My heart sank until I saw him sitting on the floor with the dog. I sat up to go pee and the dog gave Matthew a nose poke. Matthew looked up from under his hood. He saw me go in the bathroom. When I came out I wondered if he was happy. I walked over to him and when he saw me he stood up. I looked in his beautiful eyes and said, are you happy? He put his arms around me and said, yes. I don’t think I could be any happier. I was worried because you didn’t come to bed. Matthew said, I love you so much and want to hold you, kiss you and make love to you all the time. I don’t want to tax you so you can’t take care of the kids. He started kissing me on the neck. I said, well why don’t I tax you? He said, what? I took his hand and lead him to the bed. I had him sit down and then I got down on the floor on my knees. I opened his robe. He had this big grim on his face. His penis stood straight up and hard. Matthew knew something was going to happen. When I saw it I said, someone missed me. I started licking him with my tongue like an ice cream cone and then around and round. I said, you taste so good. Matthew was clinching the edge of the bed and moaning. I put him in my mouth. He felt so good. It had been a long long time since I did this. I notice how he was moaning so I decided to see how far I could put him in my mouth. He felt so good but then my vagina went that is not where that goes. It was really hard to resist. Then it calmed down and I went back to enjoying him. He was moaning and was holding the edge of the bed for dear life. That made me feel really good. I started pulling him out of my mouth and putting him in as deep at posable. Then he came. I could tell it was hard and good. It was great. After a minute he handed me some tissues. I started cleaning my face up and he started cleaning himself up. I said, I need to go to the bathroom and clean up. He just smiled really big. I went in the bathroom and brushed my teeth. As I came out he went in. I got back in bed and when he came out he got in bed. He pulled me over and put my head on his shoulder. He felt so good and kissed me on my head. I went right to sleep. When he woke me to go to breakfast I felt really good.
We went to breakfast and after Matthew went to work. He kissed me and said, it is so hard to pull myself away from you and the kids. He said, I love you. I said, I love you too and he was off.
Before lunch, Matthew and two guys with two large golf carts took Serena, Jean and the new baby home. Sarah was on the porch and so excited to see them. She had made them a special lunch. Matthew came to lunch to tell everyone that Jean went home and everyone was happy. Matthew came for dinner and said he didn’t have to go back. When I got in bed Matthew was naked and said, did you take a good nap today? I said, yes. I did. I thought he was going to return the loving I gave him. He pulled me over so I could sleep on the shoulder. Before I shut my eyes I said, where is Sergeant? He said, taking care of the goats. They miss her when she is not around. I think they think she is their mom. I shut my eyes and was sound asleep in a minute. Matthew felt really good and was so warm.