I woke up and opened my eyes. I saw Matthew leaning back on two pillows with a baby in his daddy shirt. I could see light which was coming through the curtains on the siding glass door. I thought it must be around 6am and should get up. I shut my eyes again and felt Matthew get up but soon came back to bed. He took my hand and kissed it. I opened my eyes with a smile. He said, how are you feeling this morning? I said, I feel like queen for a day. I have my wonderful husband back, two new babies and a new home. It’s more than I ever dreamed of. He said, I know what you mean. He leaned over and kissed me. I said, Oh. That was nice. He said, do you feel neglected? I said, no. Why do you ask? He said, I have been spending all my time at home with the new kids and I was worried you might feel neglected. I said, no. He kissed me again and said, I love you so much and more every day. If you feel neglected I want you to let me know. When you can I will show you how much I love you. That made me smile really big. Matthew had changed but the old Matthew was showing through. I said, I will be looking forward to that. He smiled and said, I think it is time for us to get up. Do you feel up to it? I said, yes. I slept really good when I was sleeping last night and feel pretty good this morning. He said, great. Do you want to use the bathroom first. I said, ok, but a lot of people will fit in that bathroom. He said, that’s true. He kissed me again. It was really nice. I got up but didn’t want to. I wanted to roll in the hay but the doctor said, not for 6 weeks. I don’t know if I can hold out that long. I went to the bathroom, looked at the babies and then sat at our table. It was not long before the baby nurse showed with a cart and our breakfast. After breakfast Matthew went to see Carlson and I took care of me and the babies. At lunch time Matthew showed to have lunch with me and bring so clean robes. After lunch Matthew opened the drawers of his dresser. He then opened the closet. There were some empty boxes in there marked Matthew. His mother had kept his clothes. She had unboxed them in the closet and the dresser. Matthew took one box and started putting the clothes back in the boxes from the dresser. When he came to the boxer shorts and few other things he was conflicted. He finely left them in the drawer. In the closet he found boots and shoes that he put in an empty box. He then hung up his clean robes. After that Matthew said, he was going to the gym and would be back soon. After he left my phone rang. I picked it up to answer it. Mom said she was bringing Hunter and Wyatt over. I was really happy and said, I was glad. I really miss them. Before I put my phone down I noticed her number was the only thing on my phone. It had been wiped or factor reset. I wondered if Dr. Walton wanted that? Mom brought the kids and it was so great to see Hunter and Wyatt. Mom had Cindy and Amy move the kids into the first kids room. She then showed Cindy and Amy the care taker room. So they could move what things they wanted in there. The kids room was so nice with unicorns and other things on the wall. It was a good day and I hoped on sleeping good again tonight.
THURSDAY DECEMBER 14 I woke up and opened my eyes. I was on my right side facing Matthew. He was laying there with a baby in his daddy shirt just like with Wyatt. I wanted to start crying. Matthew had made my life worth living. I had him back, two new children and this beautiful place. Matthew open his eyes and looked at me. He said, are you ok? I said, more than ok. My life is better than I could have ever asked for. I love you so much. Please don’t ever stop loving me. He said, I love you so much I could never stop loving you. I should be the one asking you to never stop loving me. This year, I accomplished the training I wanted to be able to better protect my family, you gave me two more beautiful children, we have this really nice place to live in and I am married to the most wonderful woman in the whole world. I feel like I am on top of the world. I smiled really big thinking I feel the same way. After breakfast Matthew said, he was going to start going to the gym maybe once or twice a day. He needed to work with Carlson on the new training facility so he would be gone a lot during the day and wanted to know if I would be fine. I said, yes. I have the baby nurse to help out while he was gone. He took my phone and put his phone number in it. Then said, if I needed anything at all call or text him. He gave me a kiss and went off to see Carlson. I was fine with that because my day was filled with taking care of the babies and myself. Mom brought Hunter and Wyatt in after their breakfast. I was on the bed, feed a baby and watching The Adams family. Hunter got on the bed wanting to see the baby and watch Adams family with me. Wyatt wanted to play on the floor with toys. Mom wanted to hold and take care of the other baby. She was so happy to be the grandmother of 4 kids. The day went good and I was hoping on getting into a routine. Feeding the babies, exercising and taking showers. Today was good and I managed to stay awake almost all day so I would sleep good at night.
FRIDAY DECEMBER 15 This day followed the same as yesterday. Slept good at night.
SATURDAY DECEMBER 16 I woke this morning and opened my eyes. Matthew was sleeping as always with a baby in his shirt. I looked at him and thought I want to be all over him. If the doctor hadn’t told me no sex for six weeks I was thinking he would be in trouble. I don’t think I could leave him alone. I so wanted to take a shower with him. Ah, it must be all these hormones I have in my system. It is hard to sleep next to him and not touch him. Mom brought Hunter and Wyatt in. Hunter saw Matthew. Matthew put out his arms to pick up Hunter and said, wow you have gotten so big. Hunter froze. Her eyes got big. She had not seen the new Matthew. Matthew said, come here and let me look at you. Hunter shook her head and ran behind Mom. She was holding on to her leg really tightly. Mom said to Matthew, it is going to take her time to get accustom to the new you. She is very small and doesn’t understand what has happened. Matthew said to Hunter, are you sure? I really missed you. When she didn’t let go of Mom, Matthew put his bottom lip over his top lip to pout. She still didn’t let go of Mom. Matthew said, I am going to cry. Hunter let go of Mom. She went and got on the bed waiting for me. The rest of the day was good and I went to sleep right away when I went to bed that night.
SUNDAY DECEMBER 17
I had a good night getting into a routine was helping. So with Matthew and the routine I was waking up feeling half way rested. Mom came in with Hunter and Wyatt. Matthew put his hood over his head. He thought Hunter needed more time to get accustom to his new look. Wyatt let Matthew pick him up and talk to him. Mom brought a nursing sling and more pillows. She thought it would help if I didn’t have to hold the baby at night to breast feed, could shut my eyes and rest. I told her thankyou. This is so great. Hunter was on the bed watching Matthew. Her head would tilt side to side. Then she would scrunch her nose up and look at him. He went over to the bed near where she was sitting and got down on his knee’s to look at her. He would do the same thing Hunter was doing. Tilt his head when she would tilt her head. Scrunch his nose. Wyatt came over to see what Matthew was doing. Hunter gave Wyatt a disapproval look. Matthew said to Hunter, Wyatt can’t come see me. Hunter shook her head no. Matthew put his bottom lip over his top lip like he was going to pout. Hunter put her bottom lip over her top but pushed her chin out in disapproval. Matthew gave a little laugh and then said, that’s my girl. Hunter looked at him like she knew that voice. Wyatt wanted on the bed. So Matthew put Wyatt on the bed and then came back to his chair. Matthew said to his Mom, God she’s wonderful. Mom said, yes. She is little and will adapt to your new look. Matthew smiled. Matthew said, I better go see Carlson before he starts looking for me. He got out of his chair. Came over to me and kissed my hand saying, Thankyou for giving me this wonderful children. I smile. He kissed me and said, I will be back later. He was off. The rest of the day was great. I got some time on the tread mill and bike.