Today went really well. I have been putting breast milk in the fridge. Matthew said, so he was going to feed it to the babies so I can get more sleep. Mom wants me to start going to breakfast with her. Matthew said, he is not ready yet but if I am I should start going again.
WEDNESDAY DECEMBER 20
I woke in the middle of the night and Matthew was putting one of the babies in their bed. He went to the bathroom and came back to bed. He looked at me and he could tell I had idea’s in my head. I remember sleeping on his shoulder and putting my arm on his chest. He started kissing me. His kisses were so good. He tried to rub my breast but it just leaked all over so he moved to my neck. He was sucking on my neck and slipped his hand under my pajama pants. He started rubbing my clitoris. He felt so good. I remember his hands when we were in the gym before he left. I was wishing we could have sex. It was too soon but my vagina was screaming now. I came and it felt so good. He got out of bed and grabbed the vaseline off the baby table. He came to the bed and reached his hand out. He wanted me to get out of bed. I took his hand and got out of bed. He took his daddy shirt off and dropped his rob. He turned me around and pulled my pajama bottoms down. He had me bend over and put my hands on the bed. He then applied vaseline to my bottom. He slowly enter me. It felt so good. My whole body kept jerking with pleasure. He put his hands on my hips so he could push and pull me on him. When I shut me eyes I could feel Mathews hands and I could smell him. It was like he never left. He might have changed the way he looked but it was still Matthew. He would go in and out. He stopped for awhile to rub my clitoris and nibble on my neck. I thought I was going to come again. It was so great. I was going to asked when we could go to the hot tub again. I remember when we did this in the gym shower. Then he came. I didn’t come again but enjoyed every minute of it. He turned me around. Putting his arms around me and kissing me he said, I love you so much. I put my head on his shoulder and said, I love you too. I thought I have my life back. We went to the bathroom and cleaned up. When we went back to bed he tucked me in and said, try and get some sleep. I slept really soundly until he woke me later to feed a baby.
THURSDAY DECEMBER 21 Mom came over in the morning with the kids after breakfast. Wyatt sat on Matthews lap and wanted to help him eat his breakfast. I don’t think he was hungry. I think he just wanted Matthew to share. Matthew gave him a slice of toast from the table. He was very happy with that. Hunter was sitting on the floor looking at Wyatt with jealousy. I think she is coming around. Mom asked it I could come to breakfast in the morning. Daniela wanted to see the babies. Matthew said, he would bottle feed them at least once tonight so I could get a better nights sleep for in the morning. I slept good tonight.
FRIDAY DECEMBER 22 Matthew woke me early morning to feed the babies and get ready to go to breakfast. After I got ready Mom showed and we went to breakfast. Matthew said, he was going to see Carlson and would not be there when I came back. At breakfast I was so glad to see Daniela. She wanted to hold a baby. She said, it brought back memories when she had the boys. I told her I was going to try and come every morning again. Daniela said to Jack, we should have one. Jack smiled really big at her. Her boys looked at the babies and the older one said, is it hard to have two babies? I said, sometimes, but it is such a gift to have two that you don’t mind. In the afternoon I shut my eyes for a few minutes thinking I need to take a nap but it quickly passed. Mom was at the table working on Christmas. I said to her, I didn’t get you a Christmas present. She said, but you did. Two wonderful grand children. I played with the kids on the floor for quite awhile and then they had to take a nap. It was a really good day.
SATURSDAY DECEMBER 23 I woke up and went to breakfast. Everything went really well. When Matthew and I were alone I told him I felt bad because I didn’t get Mom a Christmas present. He said, not to worry about it. That Mom was so excited about her Christmas presents that she got everyone and we should not distract from that by getting her presents. That she was so happy to have us and the kids. That was the only thing she wanted. I agreed with him. I slept good tonight.