Today went really good. Jean gave us some clothes and shoes for TAI Chi. Class was really great. Breast feeding the baby feels really normal now. At night when the baby cries Matthew takes one hand and pulls Hunter close to him to make room for the baby and hands me the baby. When I am done with the baby I get up and slide him back in Matthews shirt and usually go to the bathroom before returning to bed. This can happen 2 or 3 times a night. You can set a watch by the baby because he always wakes me up at 4am. All of this seems normal to Matthew also. He doesn’t even have a problem when the baby spits up on him. He usually puts a cloth under the baby’s head incase it happens. I might end up feeding the baby once or twice before breakfast. I have started pumping breast milk and putting it in Mom’s fridge she has in her room. She has a bottle warmer so she is ready if we go off for a night.
WEDNESDAY April 5. Matthew came to breakfast and we all had a great time. After breakfast Matthew told Mom he had to talk to me. He took my hand and led me to the empty office again. I thought he was going to ask me about dreams again. He shut the door and locked it. He kissed me and said it was driving him crazy all day not having our time together. He said, I can’t work all day because all he thinks about all day is me. I told him it bothered me a lot also. He started deep kissing me. He was all over me. He reached under my skirt and put his fingers inside me. He set me on the desk and then put himself inside me. I was lost. I had missed our contact comfort so must. It felt so good and before I knew what happened we both came. We put ourselves back together. He gave me a big long kiss. You could tell he didn’t want to leave. Final he said, I need to get to work. Love you.
I went to class and Jean gave Daniela and I clothes and shoes for Tai Chi. He said we would have other clothes and equipment for other classes. I went to the gym today and did a regular work out. I love the hot tub in the gym. I should go everyday just for the hot tub. I heard the submarine turned around so Matthew was sure he has a leak. CarIson and Matthew are trying to find the leak. I heard up on the hill they are putting in bullet prof glass. Motion detectors, cameras on the cliff and many other things. They were worried some one would gas the post so they added gas mask and oxygen. Hopefully our life is safer now. I decided to set up a schedule. Time to run. Time for class. Time for gym all between taking care of the baby. I asked Daniela to join me running and the gym days that Matthew couldn’t make it. She said that would be great. She said she would meet me in the morning for running.
THURSDAY April 6
The baby woke me at 11:30pm. I had to get up because I had a really bad acidic stomach. I found the tums and then took care of the baby. Matthew was asleep and I put the baby back in his shirt.
Today went smoothly because I made a schedule. Matthew showed for dinner and came back at bed time. He promised me a candle light dinner on Friday and I was excite like a kid on Christmas.
FRIDAY April 7
Friday I woke at 2am and noticed Matthew was gone. It gave me a lonely feeling missing him. In the morning I went running with Daniela. We had started looking forward to the run together. She seem to be at the same place as I was in running. Class was great with Jean as usually. I was starting to feel more control of my body and breathing. I hadn’t seen Matthew all day and when dinner time came I was looking for him. I had the baby in my arms and sat down for dinner. We were sitting there waiting for our food when Matthew showed up. I had begun to think he couldn’t make it. He kissed Mom on the cheek, then Hunter and then took the baby from me and gave him to Mom telling her he was going to borrow me for the night. He took my hand and out the door we went upstairs to our room. When Matthew shut the door he moved me back against the bed and clothes went flying. We couldn’t get our clothes off fast enough. He started making love to me. Before we knew what happened we both came. We had really missed each other. Matthew cleaned himself up with some bed side tissues. He then pulled me over so my head was on his chest and we both fell asleep. It had been a long day and we were both sleeping really well when there was a knock at the door. Matthew got up and opened the door a crack. It was dinner. We had completely forgot about dinner. Matthew said to the person through the crack in the door could you leave the cart there. The person replied no problem and left. After he was out of site Matthew quickly pulled the cart inside and shut and locked the door. He took the cart to the table and place everything on the table. When I open mine I said, wow. Mine was turkey with scalloped potatoes and broccoli. I saw a big bowel of strawberries and other fruit on the table. The desert looked like that chocolates moose that I was crazy about. It was so good I was worried about eating too much. Matthew finished his before me, went and laid down. I looked at him and thought wow. Look at that man and he is all mine. I decided to stop eat and go get me some of that man of mine. I took a large strawberry out of the bowel, took the top of and took it to the bed. I crawled up to Matthew and said, have you tried the strawberries? He said not yet. I put it in his teeth and started kissing him down his chest. He took the strawberry from his mouth and was watching me. When I got to his manhood I thought a bigger wow. Look at that. So beautiful. I started licking him like a popsicle. That’s when he started moaning. It must of felt really good. Then I put him in my mouth and it felt really good. I was suddenly lost. It made my whole body feel good and my clitoris was going hay that’s mine. I started moving him as far in my mouth as possible and then out. I didn’t hear him moaning because my clitoris was building up to come and I was totally lost. All of a sudden he came and when he did I did. The only thing I can say was it was just so great. I cleaned him and me with bed side tissues. I then put my head on his chest and we went back to sleep. I don’t know what time it was when I heard this sweetheart you need to wake up. When I got my eyes open it was Matthew trying to wake me up. He had been trying to wake me because I was leaking all over him. My body was missing the baby. He had put some tissues against my right breast but it wasn’t helping. He went to the bathroom and got a towel. That was better. I was sitting up and he was standing by the bed. Matthew said, I need to give you a bath. Do you want anything else to eat before we take a shower? We both sat a the table and ate some more dinner. I dipped a few strawberries in the chocolate moose. Everything tasted so good. Soon Matthew sat back in his chair and said that food is just really good. I agreed. I pigged out. Matthew sat for a good thirty minutes with his eyes closed. My towel was filling up and I had eaten too much. Then Matthew said, Ready for a shower and I replied, yes. In the shower Matthew played with the soap washing my back, front, breast and between my legs. I enjoyed rubbing the soap on his back, front and his penis. He then started kissing me and rubbing his hand between my legs. He rinsed us both off and turned me around, bent me over and entered me from behind. It felt so good. I was lost. He was rubbing my clitoris as he moved in and out. It was so good I was wishing it would last forever. But I couldn’t hold out and I came. It caused him to come also. After we rinsed off and dried off we went back to the bed. I first walked over to the table and picked up a strawberry. I said, do you want a strawberry, to which he replied with this big smile, last time I said yes you had your way with me. I laughed a little. I came to bed with a towel against my breast this time and fell back to sleep on his chest. I was hoping in the future we could have more time together.