Last night I woke up a couple of hours after I went to sleep and had to pee. When I came out of the bathroom I heard Mom crying. I went in and sat on her bed. I asked if she was ok? She said, that a lot of things had been hard in her life but she thought losing Matthew is the hardest thing she has ever had to deal with. I started crying. She sat up in her bed and gave me a hug. She said, I am sorry I didn’t mean to make you cry. I said, Its ok. I do this every couple of hours anyway. I think it is going to take a long time for me to stop it. Hunter came in. I said, what are you doing out of your bed? Mom said, she is such a climber, its hard to keep her in her bed. She put her arms up. She wanted to be picked up. I picked her up and sat her between Mom and me. Mom hugged her and said, you and the kids are my whole world now. I said, we are really glad we have you. I was trying not to cry. Mom’s bed was only a Queen so I said, I have the king size bed would you like to come and sleep with us? She smiled and said, I would like that. So we went in my room and Mom brought Hunter. Hunter didn’t want to sleep in her bed so we let her sleep with us. Mom put her between us and said, If you are going to sleep with us you have to go to sleep. Shut your eyes. Hunter scrunched her eyes closed making this funny face. I wanted to laugh. I shut my eyes and went to sleep.
In the morning I woke up and Mom was sitting in the wheel chair next to me with Hunter in her lap. I said, what are you two up to? Mom said, Scott texted at 6am wanting to know if you are ok? I told him I would text him when you got up. I said, I am fine. You can tell him I am fine. I got up to pee. I have to pee all the time now. I came out of the bathroom and Mom said, she had texted him back. She said, I was trying to think about something fun to do today but haven’t come up with anything. Do you have any ideas? I said, I think it is going to be warm this afternoon, do you want to go in the pool for a while? She said, that sounds great. Mom said, then after the swimming we will put the kids down for a nap. I said, sounds great. At breakfast there was Mom, Hunter, Scott, Me, The baby, and Cindy were on the other side of the baby to help feed him. Hunter would not stay in her high chair because Scott had spoiled her. She had to sit and stand on Scott’s lap. Scott said, he needed a bib in his lap because she is a messy eater. I saw Wyatt leaning forward and looking at Hunter. I said to Scott, I think someone is jealous. Scott looked down the table at the baby and said, I see what you mean. I can put his high chair here but I don’t have room for both of them on my lap. Daniela from across the table said, I think you might have to make Hunter sit in her high chair. Scott shook his head yes and said, I think you are right. Daniela said, Boy she is not going to like that. I said to Daniela, how are you guys? She said, good. The boys like their school and Jack likes his job. I said, we were going to try and go for a swim for an hour this after noon. Would you like to come? Daniela said, that would be great. The boys will be in school and Jack at work. I said, we will let you know the time. Maybe an hour after lunch. Scott texted Carlson that he would not be in today. That Mom and Angel were having a hard time and he was going to be with them all day. Carlson text back. Do you want me to put you down that you will be with them the rest of the week? Scott texted back that would be great. Scott turned to Mom and said, Carlson has scheduled me to be with you the rest of the week to help out. Mom said, that’s nice of him. Scott thought this is great. I get all week with Angel and the kids. I said, we will let you know the time. Maybe an hour after lunch. Scott continued to fuzz over me. At breakfast he kept whispering to Hunter to kiss ma, ma. He would hold her up to me so she could kiss me. I would laugh and said to Scott, she has food on her face. He would smile really big and said, I know. When we went swimming he helped me in the pool and swam around while I did a lot of walking. Mom took the baby in and Daniela took Hunter in. I told Scott this is great. He said, The pool is heated. I can take you in the pool everyday before your nap. After my nap with the kids I felt really great. I told Mom and Daniela at dinner that I was going in the pool everyday at the same time for while. At dinner time everything tasted so good. And bed time I was feeling so good and my whole disposition was changing. Scott had taken my hand a couple of times during the day and said, I am here for you and Mom. I will help you through this. I smiled at him and said, thankyou. You are wonderful.
Mom slept in my bed and this also helped me feel better that she was close by. I closed my eyes and didn’t wake up until the next morning.
WED SEPTEMBER 20 Today was good. With Mom sleeping with us helped me feel better. Also, the swim everyday was helping also. It was a little colder today but the pool was heated. Scott met with Carlson. They talked to Serena’s mom and decided she knew nothing about what Serena had done. When she stole the book Serena’s mom was sleeping. They let Serena’s mom go home but was not allowed a cell phone or computer and was to have a guard. She was not allowed to go anywhere. Serena’s mom said she thought Serena wasn’t thinking when she did what she did. That she was just so distraught about losing Jean and being pregnant she didn’t think about what she was doing. Scott also said the doctor gave her a complete physical to make sure her and the baby were ok. I asked Scott if I could see her and Scott said he would ask Carlson. He didn’t think it would be soon maybe a couple of days.
THUR SEPTEMBER 21 I woke up to see Wyatt jumping up and down in his bed. He would try to put one leg up. He wanted to climb out like Hunter does. I saw Mom was awake. I said to her, do you see that? She said, yes. I was thinking of putting a mattress or something under his bed incase he gets his leg over. I said, That’s a great idea. At breakfast Mom and Daniela didn’t want to go swim today because they thought it was too cold. I said, I was going to try it one more day because it was really helping me sleep. Scott pushed me in the wheel chair to the pool. He was only wearing his swim trunks when we passed two women. They were looking wide eyed at Scott. His exercising was starting to be noticeable. He was looking good. At the pool he had my hand and went down the steps. When he was in the pool and I was on the second step. Scott took his right hand and waved it across in front of him with a head bow. He said, your pool awaits you my lady. I smiled and said. Are you my knight in shining armor? Scott said, If you wish my lady? I was now in the pool. Scott said, This knight will protect you and your children from any danger that might arise. I said, well thankyou Scott. That makes me feel better. He held me and turn around several times in the pool. He was looking at me stary-eyed. He stood me in the shallow end and said, I am going to swim for a while. Will you be ok? I said, yes. I am going to do my walking. Scott thought a big weight had been taken off his shoulders since everyone was notified that Matthew was believed dead. He felt he could now express his feelings to Angel. He now had a family and he felt he could protect his family against anything the world could throw at him. He walked with his head high. He went to bed at night dreaming of being Angel’s husband. When I went to bed I had closed my eyes and was thinking about what Scott had said today in the pool. I wondered what it was leading to?