Scott woke me up and asked if I was ready to get up. I said, I have a little stiff neck on the right side but other wise I was feeling better than yesterday. Scott was still in bed so I said, You haven’t gotten up yet? He said, No. I need to ask you something. He set me up and started massaging my neck on the right side and said, I need you to promise that you will never jump again or I can’t marry you. I said, I can do that. Scott said, well you broke your promise with Matthew and jumped. You brought back that doctor and broking your promise to Matthew and the doctor. I said, I know and I am sorry. I lost control but I believe now that I can control it and will not make that mistake again. Scott said, so you will promise me you will not ever jump again. I said, yes. I will not jump again and I will not break my promise. Scott said, good. If you do break your promise I will not marry you. If you break your promise after I marry you I will have you removed from our home and take the kids away from you. I said, I understand. I shouldn’t have jumped and it will not happen again. He said, good. I am glad we had this talk. He stopped rubbing my neck and turned around on the bed facing me. He started kissing me but then didn’t stop. He put his tongue in my mouth. He started moving his tongue in and out. Deeper every time. My body started twitching because he felt so good. I thought this is great. All my little aches and pains were gone. He started rubbing my left breast when he started thinking about the men who came before and was sure they came because I jumped. He thought if that happened again the next men might kill the children, his brother and not stop there. Then he stopped kissing me. He took his right hand off my breast and put it around my throat. He squeezed just hard enough to be tight but not to hurt. He looked me in my eyes with this hate and anger I had never seen coming from him before. A look that he wanted to kill me and said, I love you very much and the kids so much I think of them as my own. I can’t have you lying to me or breaking your promises. I can’t have you stomping on my heart because I can’t be responsible for what I might do. So don’t make promises to me you are not going to keep. I was only able to whisper and said, I love you very much and will not break my promises. His face change from a look of hate to just staring in my eyes. Then a smile of love came over his face. He let go of my neck. He said, we better get up and get ready. If we don’t get ready for breakfast Mom might come looking for us. I agreed and got up. I thought I don’t have any problem while I am pregnant. I don’t think I can jump this pregnant. After I have the kids I am sure I will think about the kids now before I jump. At breakfast Mom asked how I was doing? I told her I still had some aching like yesterday but not anything as bad as yesterday. That it seemed to be passing. Mom said, it was going to be warm out today and she wanted to have lunch out side. She invited anyone who wanted to come. Everyone thought that was a great idea. We went to the table at pool side. Scott and Paul played with the kids in the grass. Paul brought snacks to keep Hunter’s attention while he tried to teach her to read. Wyatt wanted to join in with what Hunter and Paul were doing. So Paul decided to try and teach both kids. Scott asked me if I wanted to go swimming after lunch before Paul and him went to the gym. I said, yes. I missed the pool. After lunch everyone sat around and talked for a while and then Scott took me in the pool. Paul took Wyatt, Cindy took Hunter and Mom came in to enjoy the warm water. After an hour we all headed in for nap time and Scott with Paul when to the gym. Scott asked Mom if he could keep me at night so he keep a closer watch on me. Mom said, that would be fine. She said then she would not worry and could sleep better. Scott helped put the kids in bed a bed time and then wheeled me to his room. He got me tucked in bed and then worked on his laptop. It felt really nice to be naked in-between the cool sheets. I fell right to sleep.
FRIDAY OCTOBER 13 Scott woke me up at around 1am. He said I was moaning. He asked what was wrong. I said, my right leg hurt really bad. He help me to the bathroom. He said going pee might help. After he got me back in bed and he massaged my right leg. That helped. He then put cream on my stomach. He smiled really big and kiss both babies calling them by name. He said, here is a kiss for Skylar and a kiss for Alexander. Daddy loves you. That made me so happy. He was being so sweet. He is so wonderful. I felt really bad about jumping and upsetting him. I have to keep my promise this time. He then started kissing me. Putting his tongue in my mouth. I was feeling really good by then. He reached down under my stomach and started rubbing me. Then he put two finger inside my vagina. I was felling no pain. My body wanted him. He took his fingers out and turned me on my right side. With him behind me, he raised my right leg and put himself inside me. I gasped because the feeling was so good. He went in and out a couple of times and I was lost. I felt so good I didn’t even know I was pregnant or where I was. I don’t know how long it was before I came but afterward I was wishing I always felt that good. After he came he wrapped his arm over me cuddling me and we went to sleep. I slept so soundly that the fire department could have drove their truck threw our room and I wouldn’t have woke up. I didn’t notice when he got up to get ready for breakfast but when he was ready he woke me to get ready. I felt good and he smelted amazing as he was helping me off the bed. I said, I am fine I can get up by myself. He said, he didn’t want to take the chance that my leg’s were not ready this morning. I looked at him and said, have I told you how much I love you? He smiled really big and gave me a kiss. He said, I love you too. He got me ready and we went to breakfast. At breakfast I felt a distance from him. I remembered the day he was holding my hand, kissing it and Jack was watching him. He doesn’t seem to have that twinkle in his eye. Is it me? Is it because I am pregnant? I am very emotional, maybe nothing is wrong. He was so sweet to me last night and this morning. Maybe it is because I promised Matthew and the doctor that I would not jump and I broke my promise. Or maybe it is just because today is Friday the 13?
Really close to 7pm Scott was sitting on the floor in the family room with the kids. Wyatt had fell asleep and Hunter was sitting in his lap. They were watching a Disney movie. I got really hot and felt sick. I tried to say Scott but only a whisper came out. When he didn’t hear me I looked down and saw one of Wyatt’s toys. I picked it up the toy and thew it at Scott. He looked at me with a WTF look. He saw I was sick. He called Cindy and asked if she could come help him. She said, she would be right there. He sat Hunter on the couch and asked me what was wrong. I said, I am hot and dizzy. I needed some ice. Cindy showed and he went to the kitchen for ice and ice water. When he came back I put the ice on my head and drank some ice water. I started feeling better. I told Scott I needed to lay down. He set Hunter on the floor telling her mommy needed to lay down. Scott put a pillow under my head and I laid there with the ice on my head until I felt better. Scott took Wyatt and put him in bed. When he came back he told Cindy he would be fine now and thanked her for coming. He sat on the floor next to Hunter and held my hand. After I felt better I gave Scott the ice pack and said, I was going to shut my eyes until he was ready to go to bed. Scott and Hunter watched the rest of the film and then he took her to bed. He came back and woke me up and took me to bed. I told him I don’t know why this keeps happening. Maybe I ate too much dinner. I have no idea. He tucked me in and said he was sorry he didn’t notice I was sick. He said, He loved being a dad and the kids had his attention. I said, it was fine. I love you. I shut my eyes and went to sleep.