Thursday went really well. The baby woke me at a little after 4am just like clock work. I went running with Daniela. We ate at the pool. I went to class and Daniela and her boys, Megan and her two kids all came with me. It was a really good day of eating, swimming, reading and taking care of the baby. Daniela and I talked about going back to the gym. We invited Megan. She thought that would be a great idea for her to get rid of stress. Megan brought some books and towels for anyone who wanted to read also. At bed time Hunter wanted to sleep with me but I told her there wasn’t room. She thought Mom should move. I told her it was Mom’s bed and she would have to sleep in her crib. She was not happy. I think she is just missing her daddy. I know I am. I turned over and faced her crib. I told her Wyatt is asleep you need to go to sleep. She laid down on her pillow and fell asleep right away. Every time I would shut my eyes I would fall asleep and dream of Matthew. At least it was good dreams.
FRIDAY MAY 19 Matthew has been gone 10 days and I still have not got over him leaving. I cant believe that I can’t live 3 weeks without him. The day went good. I went running and to the gym with Daniela and the new woman Megan. We did exercises and then sat in the hot tub for 20 minutes. It was great. It was late afternoon and Daniela and I were at the table. I had the baby when Daniela’s boys got out of the pool and ran over to their mom. Daniela ask what was wrong and the boys said a man and women got in the pool. Daniela explained to the boys that the pool belonged to everyone who lived there. She pointed to the other tables and noted how big the pool was. She said the pool is so big you can play at one end and they can play at the other. They were happy with that and went back in the pool. Everything was great and I slept good when I went to bed.
SATURDAY MAY 20 I woke up around 3:30 or 3:45. The baby was still asleep. I went to the bathroom and tried to throw up. My stomach was driving me crazy. It was just dry heaves. I sat on the floor by the toilets for a good 30 minutes. I was then able to get up and out of the bathroom just before the baby started crying. The rest of the day went really well. When I went to sleep I hoped that wouldn’t happen again.