Sunday April 9

It was around 2am when a woman’s voice woke me up. She was calling Matthew. I put my hand on Matthew’s shoulder which woke him up. I whispered do you hear that? Matthew listened and then said, No. What does it sound like? I replied, its a woman and she is calling your name. Matthew listened again and then said, No. Do you still hear it? I listened and said, No. Matthew said. maybe it was a dream go back to sleep. I fell back asleep and at 4am the baby woke me up. Matthew was gone. I took care of the baby like always. Putting him back in Matthew’s shirt because Matthew was gone. I went pee and was washing my face and hands when I heard it again. I looked in the mirror and listened intensely. All of a sudden I was in an airplane bathroom at 40 thousand feet with this woman. It was really crowed. She had been crying a lot and said to me who are you. I said back who are you. She said she had be kidnapped because her husband was transporting some diamonds for his business and these men thought she knew where they were and she didn’t. Now they want to trade me for the diamonds. There was a knock a the door and a man yelled hurry up in there. She replied almost done. I took her hand and said where do you live? She said in California? I said, where in California? She said, Carlsbad. I said, shut your eyes and tell me about your bathroom. She shut her eyes and started telling me about the color with a double sink. Suddenly I opened my eyes and we were in this big nice bathroom. She opened her eyes. She said she had a new baby and they were going to kill her and she would never see her baby. I opened the bathroom door enough to peek out. I could see the FBI at a table with equipment and a man passing behind them with a crying baby. I shut the door. She had now realize she was home. I said, you have to tell no one how you got here. They will come and kill me and my family. I started leaking though my shirt. I said, I too have a new baby. She promised she would not tell anyone. She said, I will tell them I opened my eyes and I was in the bathroom. I replied, good because after they kill my family they will come back and kill yours. I said shut your eyes and she did. I jumped and was back in mom’s bathroom. I cleaned my breast off and went back to bed. I couldn’t sleep. All I could think about was how mad Matthew was going to be with me. At breakfast I couldn’t eat. All I could think about was how mad Matthew was going to be when he found out. Mom asked if I was going to eat anything and I told her I didn’t feel well. I was so sick all day. I was sick with worry.

Jeff called Matthew in security and told him that Lisa had told him what I had done. Matthew and a team he had several years ago and had worked for this man and his wife. Matthew wanted to know why Jeff was calling him and Jeff said he wanted him to go easy on me because I couldn’t help it. This woman had a new baby and I didn’t want them to kill her. Jeff said as soon as they got the diamonds they would have. He thanked Jeff and hung up.

Matthew came to dinner. He was feeding Hunter and he could see I was squirming in my chair and not eating. Mom looked at Matthew and said she has been like this all day. Matthew turned to Cindy and said, Could you come take hunter. He then got out of his chair and took my hand. He said, come with me. We went in the office. I wanted to cry for forgiveness. Matthew shut the door and moved me up against the desk. He was in my face. I said, I have to tell you something. Matthew put two fingers over my mouth and said shush! I know. I just looked at him. He said, I want you to put it out of your mind. I want you to forget it happened. Jean has been teaching you to control your mind and body. Now forget it happened. Can you do that? I said, yes. He said, Ok then when get out of here it didn’t happened. I shook my head yes. He started kissing me. You could tell he wanted to make love to me. I was feeling much better. He stopped and said, If our dinner wasn’t getting cold I would make love to you but we better get back. He gave me one more big kiss and out the door we went. At dinner I felt much better and was able to eat some of it. After dinner he gave me a kiss and said he had to go relieve of the men so they could go to lunch but he hope to be back at bed time. Matthew got in my face and said, I love you very much. Do you believe that? With a smile I replied, Yes. By bed time I was fine. I had put it out of my mind. Around 11pm the baby woke me up. Matthew was there. He pulled Hunter next to him to make room for the baby. He hand me the baby to feed. While feeding the baby I said to myself it was a dream. Life was back to normal and everything was great.