I woke up feeling great again. The day was really nice. I had great meals and spent the day enjoying the family. I asked Matthew if I could go back to class. He called Jean and Jean said if I felt up to it. I told him I would be there.
Monday APRIL 24 The baby woke me up at 4am. Matthew handed me the baby and I said you think it is ok? Matthew replied he thought it had been long enough and the baby would be fine. I started feeding the baby and something came over me. Some kind of mother bonding. He was so little, beautiful and so precious. When he finished he fell asleep. I never wanted to put him down again. Matthew said he was going to work until breakfast. That was fine with me. Matthew came to breakfast and I was still holding the baby. Matthew put Hunter on his lap and we had a great breakfast. After breakfast Matthew went back to work. He said he wanted us to get back to our regular schedule. When It came time I gave Mom the baby and kissed her on her cheek while telling her how much the whole family loves her. I got to class there were more people than the last time I was there. In the front row was a guy, then Daniela and a space. The back row had 4 people. I took the space next to Daniela and told her, hi. She said she was glad to see me. Jean said he would start and if someone else came they could join in. I was following Jean when a nice looking guy took the space next to me. It only took a few seconds when I got a smell of him. I thought I was going to die. My eyes started to watering and I wanted to throw up from the smell. Maybe he came from running the track. I put my hand over my mouth and ran to throw up behind the second row. Enough so I couldn’t smell him. Jean came around the group where I was leaned over trying to barf. When I stood up he put one arm around me and our foreheads together. We were both looking down when he whispered are you alright. I was feeling must better standing in a cool breeze. I replied, Yes I am fine now. Jean said, Ok, if you are sure I will go back to teaching class. Stay right here where I can see you. I said, that will be fine and I am feeling much better. He took his arm from around me and went back to teaching the class. As I was turning around to face the front of the class I saw Amy sitting at one of the tables looking at me and she didn’t look happy. When class was over Jean ask me again if I was ok and I said yes. Jean said well then see you tomorrow. I smiled just as Amy showed up. She walked me back to the family room where Mom and Cindy were with the kids. The rest of the day was great. This heighten since of smell was really causing problems.
TUESDAY APRIL 25 Everything went really well Tuesday. I went to class but stayed in the back. Matthew came to breakfast and Dinner. I was feeling really well and glad to be back on schedule.
WEDNESDAY APRIL 26 I woke up at 4am to take care of the baby and Matthew got up to go work. After I took care of the baby I went back to sleep. I woke up an hour later with this wanting. Wanting Matthew to hold me. I didn’t really feel bad just this feeling of wanting Matthew to love me. I had this terrible need. Not to have sex but to know Matthew loved me. I don’t know what was causing it. I had the kids and everything was going well but couldn’t shake this weird unloved feeling. I couldn’t sleep so I got up, went in the bathroom and put cold water on my face. Could’t figure out what was wrong with me. Maybe it is some kind of hormonal problem. I heard Hunter. Maybe if I go hold Hunter and play with her it will pass. I played with Hunter and got her dressed for breakfast. I got ready also. Cindy came to collect us. When we got there Matthew was not there yet. I saw down holding the baby and then Matthew came in. I got up and told him I needed to talk to him. I handed mom the baby and we went out side the door. I had my back against the wall and Matthew in front of me. Matthew said, What’s up. I said, Could you hold me I am having this terrible feeling. Matthew said, do you want to have sex. I said, No it’s some thing like feeling that I need to know you love you. Matthew said, Off course I love you very much. If it is because I leave in the morning before you get up its because if I make love to you I don’t want to leave and go to work. I said, its not sex its some kind of separation anxiety maybe and needing to be held. Matthew said, its most likely because you have been sick you just need to give yourself more time. I said, That’s probably my problem. Matthew started tickling me. I started laughing and said, what are you doing? He then said, Tell me the truth you just want to rip my clothes off and have your way with me. All I could do was laugh. Matthew said, Tell me the truth you want to get me in bed and never let me out. I was squirming and laughing while Matthew tickled me. I said, Yes, yes. He stopped tickling me and kissed me. Matthew said, ready to eat? I said, yes. He took me by my hand and led me back to breakfast. He pulled out my chair and pushed it in. He sat down and looked at me with a smile. Matthew said, You just need to laugh more. I was thinking I did feel better and smiled with a yes. We had a great breakfast. When Matthew was finished he gave Hunter to Amy. Gave me a kiss and said I have to get to work. He left me with a I love you. I went to class and the rest of the day went great.
THURSDAY APRIL 27 After class Jean went by Matthew’s office he stopped and went in. Jean asked Matthew how I was doing. Matthew said, Why? Jean said, she has been standing in the back of the class and now Daniela is standing back there with her. Matthew said, Oh, she has this heighten smell and she told me some guy had been running and stood next to her and it made her sick. Also she can smell the baby going in his diaper now. Jean said, This just started since she has been out of the hospital. Matthew said, yes. Jean I don’t know what to do? Jean said, About what? Matthew said, I am number one in my field. Extraction, security, elimination and protection but I can’t protect my own wife. Someone has got to her twice. Jean said, you can’t blame yourself. Several people were guarding her and didn’t do their jobs and this time none of us new what was going on. So this was not all your fault. This time no one in the compound new what this woman was up to so there was no way to stop it. So you need to stop beating yourself up and just try to do a better job. Matthew said, I know, but it still seems like I should have done something. Jean said, If that woman had decided to poison you instead of Angel there would have been nothing we could have done either. Matthew looking at Jean said, Your right. I just feel like such failure and a bad husband. Jean said, Your not a bad husband or dad and Angel loves you. She just needs more time to get over these two things in a short time. Ok then I am going to get to work. Matthew decided Jean was right.
The day went really well and I felt fine the rest of the day. Matthew came to dinner and didn’t go back to work after dinner.
FRIDAY APRIL 28 I was up taking care of the baby at 4am and Matthew getting ready for work. I felt fine this morning. I went back to sleep after taking care of the baby. Matthew came to breakfast and asked if we wanted to have dinner out by the pool and go swimming. Everyone said yes. All during the day I was looking forward to dinner. I went to class and felt really good. At dinner we went out to our favorite spot out by the pool. The help had put flowers on the table and set eat place so nice. It wasn’t long before Matthew showed up. Everyone was happy and got ready for food. When mine came it was slices of Prime rib. scalloped potatoes and broccoli. My new sense of smell said to my brain, wow this smells so good could you just stuff it all in your mouth. My brain went stop. I picked up my knife and ate my dinner like a normal person. After we ate while waiting for desert Matthew took my hand and wanted to dance. It was a slow dance so Matthew held me close. He smelled so good. My smell said to my brain. can we eat him? The dancing was so great. Matthew was nibbling on my ear and saying how much he loved me. It made me feel really good. After two dances the baby started crying. Matthew decided if I was going to feed the baby he would take Hunter swimming. Hunter started laughing and Matthew started showing her how to splash. She loved the pool with her daddy. Mom came in the pool. When Hunter and Matthew would come by Mom, Hunter would wave. I told Cindy and Amy if they wanted to go in it was fine I had the baby. Everyone swam a good hour and then they brought desert. Everyone got out. They brought me this chocolate Mousse. It smelled so good. I would coat the spoon and then take my time with the spoon in my mouth. This tasted so good. I took 4 times as long to eat desert than anyone else but I so enjoyed it. After desert Hunter shortly fell asleep in Matthew’s arms. Matthew put her in this little crib they brought out. After I finished my mousse I feed the baby and changed his diaper. Matthew burped him and then he was sound asleep. Matthew put Wyatt in his little crib and everyone sat around talking. It got really dark fast. It wasn’t long before Mom said she was ready for bed. Matthew went over to Mom’s chair and got down on one knee and whispered in her ear. Matthew wanted some alone time with his wife. Mom looked at me, smiled and said to Matthew, Sure. Mom agreed. Matthew kissed her on the cheek and said, thanks. Mom, the two kids and two ladies went back to Mom’s room. It was dark, so it was time to head back.
Matthew came over to me, took me by the hand and led me in the pool. When we went too deep I put my hands on Matthew’s shoulders to stay afloat. Matthew went in circles a couple of times and then he took me back to the steps and started doing laps. I decided to go around the pool by holding onto the side. I don’t know how many laps Matthew did before he came over. He had this grim like a high school boy in love. He put one hand on each side of me and said, Do you come here often? I gave him a big grim and said, Well I heard there was this really cute guy here and I was hoping to meet him. Matthew said, Does he look anything like me. I replied, as a matter of fact just like you. He put his knees up and sat me on his lap with one leg on each side of him. Matthew said, you are so beautiful and I love you so much. I had both hands on the side of the pool, he had one hand on the side of the pool and one in his pants. We were in the darkest part of the pool. He took one hand and push my bathing suit aside and put himself in side of me. I felt him all the way in. I gasped with ecstasy. I was lost as to where I was. Matthew put his feet down and put one hand on each side of my waist and was moving me up and down. Then just when I was going to come he stopped. He took the strap off my shoulder and took my breast out. He started sucking on my breast. When he stopped he said, Tasty. I understand why that kid likes you. Well tell him when he is old enough he has to give them back. Putting one hand on each side of my breasts he pushing them together and said, Their mine. He started sucking on my neck. He then held me by the waist and went up and down again. Before I knew it we came. I was thinking, Wow that was so great. I must be back. But this felt better than anything I could remember ever before. He didn’t move for a minute and then I got a great big kiss. He turned in circles a couple of time while heading to the steps. He stopped and said are you ready to go in. I looked at him him and said, yes. We went to our room and no one was there. Matthew wanted to take a shower because of the chlorine. We both got in the shower and Matthew let me soap his back and front. He then washed his hair. He soaped my back and then my front again. Going round and round the nipples. He looked at me with that teenager in love look again. He pushed up against me while my back was against the wall. He put his hand between my legs and started rubbing my thighs. I could feel every movement of his finger tips. My body was begging to have him. He raised one of my legs and put himself in side of me. Again it was great. Every time he would move me up and down my eyes would squint and I would gasped for air. He started sucking on my neck and I knew I was going to come. Before I knew what happened we came. I didn’t move. Just enjoying it. He let go of my neck. Soon he started washing himself down there and me down there. Then he turned off the water and started drying me off. He then started drying himself. I just stood looking at him and thinking. I had heard of women that count tiles on the ceiling while their husbands make love to them. If they had a husband like mine it wouldn’t be that way. Just look at him. You get turned on just looking at him. He looked so good. He took me to the bed. Finished drying me my hair and put me in bed between the sheets. He dried off and slipped into the sheets. He pulled me over and put my head on his shoulder. Matthew said, Just like old times. I smiled thinking, This is so great. I fell asleep and didn’t know what happened the rest of the night. Two hours later Mom called and asked Matthew if he was ready for the kids and he told her to bring them up. He slipped quietly out of bed and answered the door. They brought the kids in sound asleep in their beds. Matthew slipped back into bed, put me back on his shoulder and went back to sleep. At 4am he heard the baby. He quietly got out of bed. Got a baby bottle, put it in the bottle heater and took care of the baby. After taking care of the baby he got ready and went to work.