SATURDAY OCTOBER 14

Scott made love to me at 10pm when he came to bed. I slept really well with his arms wrapped around me at night. I woke up at 12:30am to go pee. I felt good. My feet were swollen a little. They have been doing that lately. I think I am sitting too much. I was so glad Mom said, I could stay with Scott at night but had to be with the kids during the day. It was working out really well. My stomach is pretty big. I hope it didn’t get too big for me to walk at all. I woke up and it was 10:30am. I had missed breakfast. Scott was sitting in his computer chair. There was a tray near by. He had eaten breakfast in here. I sat up and was trying to get to the bathroom. Scott saw me and jumped up and came over. I said, Why didn’t you wake me for breakfast. As he was helping me to the bathroom he said, I tried and couldn’t get you to wake up enough to get you dressed. Mom set a nurse and the nurse said, You were fine and may start sleep most of your day. How do you feel? I said, I feel pretty good. He said, I am going to get you a protein drink and your pill. I said, that would be good. Thankyou. He called and then got me back in bed. I took my pill while he called Mom to tell her I was fine. When they came with the drink it was good. Nice and cold. When lunch time came around Paul knocked on the door. He wanted to know if Scott wanted him to watch me while he went to lunch. Scott said, No. That I was up and we were going. We would meet him there. Scott set me on the edge of the bed I said, I want to talk to you about something. I feel something is bothering you. He sat on the bed next to me and said, yes. It’s still bothering me about the last time you jumped. Several very dangerous men came. It took a large team from security to take them down. They came because you jumped and brought the doctor back. We convinced the people who sent them that they killed you. The next time we might not be that lucky. I was shocked. I said, I can’t say how sorry I am. He said, I don’t know if I want to lay the life of children, my brother and others people’s lives on the line for your word. I said, I made a terrible mistake and will not make it again. I don’t know how to convince you except to keep my word. Scott said, Maybe by the time we get married I will feel better but right now it is really bothering me. I said, last time I was having a problem a few days before I jumped. Would you feel better if I tell you if I start having a problem? He said, what would that do? I said, maybe you could do something or maybe the doctor could sedate me until it passes? Would that make you feel better? He said, yes. I will talk to the doctor about what could be done if you are having a problem. Having a back up plan would help me feel better. I said, would you tell me if anything else is bothering you? He said, yes. We got ready and went to lunch. I felt better that we were communicating and I think he was feeling better also. I was having trouble eating very much and told Scott I think the babies were pushing on my stomach. He said he was going to see about having my meals divided out into every 2 hours. He was going to have me try that and see if that worked. I don’t know of anyone who has had twins. Otherwise I could talk to them about their problems. When I went to see Serena the guard told Scott that they had moved a man from upstairs down there. That he was a guard before he got in trouble and ended up in jail. He told Scott this was to free up the guard upstairs. Scott agreed it was a good idea. Serena told me she went to see the doctor and said, it was a boy and looked healthy. I told her about the twins. We talked about how funny it was when we walked. It was a good visit. The rest of the day was good. I was well rested and felt great. We went swimming, took my nap, played with the kids and sat and talked to Mom. At bed time I said to Scott, Pretty boring day for you. I am sorry. He said, I like boring. Quite and on schedule. Knowing you are fine and everything is good with us. I can work and accomplish what I want while taking care of you. I asked what he was working on? He said, I have a  B.S. in Exercise Science and rehabilitation and Masters in Engineering. I am working on a doctoral degree in Education. So you can sleep all you want and I will take care of you. With you a few feet away I don’t worry about you and the babies. I am happier than I have ever been in my whole life. With you here with me I feel like we are already married. I love you very much and love being a husband. Your husband. I love the kids and love being a dad. I love my brother and I feel like I am on top of the world. So, I don’t want you to worry about anything. I am right here. He tucked me in and gave me a big loving kiss. He said, it was a great day knowing you are fine. I smiled and shut my eyes. I was out again.