Saturday April 1

I was sleeping really good when this nightmare started. It was different than the last one. Instead of something in the passed this was something in the future. I was dreaming that the man who kidnaped me before was coming with his team. They climbed the mountain, killed the guard on the hill and was shooting people in the compound. When they stormed the compound and killed a lot of people they lined up several men out at the pool. They lined up six of our men. Ice walked in front of the men and asked where I was. No one said anything. He then asked who is Matthew step forward. No one moved. He took a gun and held it to one of the men’s head. Ice said, I will ask again just once who is Matthew. Jean stepped forward and said I am. Matthew just looked. If he said anything he might shoot Jean. Ice said, you are younger that expected. Ice said, You and I are going to fight for your wife. Winner take all. Ice waved the gun moving Jean into the open area by the pool. He dropped his ammo belt to the ground. He turned to Jean and looked at him. He then shot him in the left shoulder. Ice said, lets see how you do now? Matthew wanted to kill him so bad. Jean wasn’t doing too bad even though he had been shoot in the shoulder. The baby started crying it was a little after 4 am. I woke up and Matthew was sitting up with the baby. I got up and came around the bed, sat down next to Matthew and took the baby. I whispered to Matthew, I had a bad dream and I need to talk to you about it. Matthew whispered, Are you ok? I said, Yes. Matthew whispered, We don’t want to wake everyone so if I make it to breakfast you can tell me and if I don’t make it to breakfast I want you to tell Jean. Ok? I looked at him thinking I must have an over imitation so I will do what he says. I whispered, Yes. He grabbed some clothes to change in security so he didn’t wake everyone. He gave me a kiss and went out the door. Took care of the baby, went to the bathroom and tried to go back to sleep. I could’t sleep. The dream had me all torqued up. Finally I got up and sat in chair. There was a new magazine on the table so I turned on the light and started looking at the articles. Even that bothered me. Makeup, beautiful hair and clothes. It made me feel like I should try to look better for Matthew. When mom woke up she said you are ready up? I replied, I couldn’t sleep so I was looking at this magazine. I looked at her and said do you think I look good enough for Matthew? She looked at me and said, What? I turn the magazine toward her and said, See how beautiful these woman are? Mom replied, Did Matthew just tell you yesterday he loves you? I said, yes and I love him very much that is why I want to look good for him. Mom said, you do look good. Your skin is glowing, your hair is beautiful, and you are in great physical condition. You look great and Matthew loves you. I said, I guess so. Its just he is really good looking, smart, and physically fit. Mom stopped me and said, and he loves you. I couldn’t help but smile. I said, yes he loves me. Mom said, we both love you, the kids and am glad you came into our lives. I hugged her and said thanks mom I love you too.

It wasn’t too long before Cindy showed up. We got the kids ready and when breakfast time came we went to breakfast. Matthew didn’t make it to breakfast. After breakfast Mom, Cindy the kids and I went to the Livingroom. I told mom I would really like to have lunch outside and go swimming. She thought that was great. When the time came I went to see Sean. Sean and I sat with legs crossed in the grass. Sean asked how I was doing. I told him I had a nightmare. He said did I use my safe word. I told him it was different than the night before. He said tell me about it. I told him the night before the nightmare was about something that had happened and last night was about something that might happen. He wanted to hear the whole nightmare. He paid sincere attention. I pointed to the guard on the hill and told him they killed him. He asked if I could describe the guard they killed. I said the dream was clear as if it really happened and described the guard. After I finished he stood up and said, Stay right there. He picked up his phone and called Matthew. Jean said, I am out here with your wife. Do you have a few minutes to come out? Matthew said, I am just finishing something and will be right out. Jean took three chairs and put them together. When Matthew came he asked him to sit down with us. Jean said I think we should look into the dream she had last night. Matthew said, If you say so. Jean asked me to again describe the guard up on the hill. Then Jean turned to Matthew and said, has she ever meet the guard? Matthew said, that is Jackson. I have him up there because he has 3 kids and it pays good. I don’t think she has meet Jackson. Matthew turned to me and asked, Have you meet Jackson? I replied to Matthew, I don’t think so. I have meet a lot of people here but don’t remember meeting Jackson. Jean then said, I want you to tell Matthew the whole dream. So I did. Afterward Matthew called Chloe and asked where is the submarine. Chloe said, I haven’t checked on it for a while because we have been working on something else but if you hold on I will find it. We all sat looking at each other until Chole came back to the phone. Chole said, It is out in the ocean and if you track its course its coming here and will be here in a week. Matthew said, Ok thankyou and hung up. Matthew said to me, Jean and I have work to do so go back with mom and I will see you later. He gave me a kiss and I went to Mom’s. Matthew told Jean we have to have an emergency meeting and Jean agreed.

When lunch time came Mom and everyone went to a table out by the pool. Matthew didn’t make it. He called Mom and told her there was an emergency to take care of. We went swimming while Cindy and Amy watched the baby. Cindy and Amy took turns so they could go swimming. It was great but would have been better if Matthew had come. We swam and played in the grass with Hunter. I took care of the baby. When dinner time came the staff brought us dinner. I told them it was great and thanked them. Hunter sat on my lap and she ate her food. Except for the dream and missing Matthew it was a good day.