Woke up today tired. I don’t know how one can get overly tired from eating, sleeping and swimming. Well I do have the twins to take care of. I was tired all day. When the kids took a nap, I took one with them. Mom had to wake me for dinner. She said, she hated to wake me because I was sleeping so soundly. Even though I had a great nap I was ready for bed even before we went in. It is going to be so great next week because the guys are coming home for July 4. It’s 4 kids and myself will be competing for his attention. When my head hit the pillow I was gone until morning. No dreams. Just out.
TUESDAY JUNE 25 Everyone is excited about the news that the men will come home Wednesday and go back Monday morning July 8. We will get to spend all that time with Matthew.
WEDNESDAY JUNE 26 We were sitting waiting for breakfast. I had one of the twins in my lap. Katarina was on the lawn with a stick. She would take the stick and jump up holding the stick with her hands and her feet out like she was a flag. She did all kinds of flips and other martial arts skills. She is never happy with her progress and she continues pushing herself to be better. Scott told Matthew that she was twice as good as him but still was never happy with herself. He also said, that is one women you never want to make her mad. She is so beautiful and talented. I am glad she is married to Scott. I could never win if she wanted Matthew. Its been great having her with us but, she should have never been put on suspension. At least Scott comes home to her every night.
THURSDAY JUNE 27 Today was a regular day. I think we will spend the summer at the pool.
FRIDAY JUNE 28 It didn’t seem like Friday. The days go fast, the kids are growing fast. When this summer is over I will remember the summer missing Matthew.
SATURDAY JUNE 29 Everyone is excited the men are coming home next Wednesday.
SUNDAY JUNE 30 The last day of June. Katarina spent a lot of time in the pool with Hunter and Wyatt. Teaching them to dive and pick up things. I saw her timing them on how long they could hold their breath. I saw her hold her breath and I though she had drowned. She was under so long.
MONDAY JULY 1 This is going to be a great week. They say the men will be coming home Wednesday just before dinner and have to go back Monday. We will have all that time with Matthew. Its hard to wait. Katarina goes to court Friday. She went to a meeting last week and they told her she had court Friday.
TUESDAY JULY 2 Today went fast but it was hard not to think about Matthew coming back.
WEDNESDAY JULY 3 It was hard not to keep looking at the time. Mom said everyone was coming back just before dinner. I was sitting at the table with the twins, Hunter and Wyatt when around the corner of the clinic came Matthew with other men following him. I looked at him and there was this 6 foot 3, 210 pound, stunning man in marine performance work out clothes. I said to Mom, OMG. Mom said, I wonder what he will look like after the program. I got up and started running to him. He was smiling ear to ear. When I got to him I put my arms around him and he did the same giving me a big kiss. It was so wonderful. After a big kiss Matthew heard this daddy, daddy. He looked down and there was Hunter pulling on his pants on one side and Wyatt on the other. He let go of me and scooped one child in each arm. He gave them a kiss and they gave him a kiss. We walked back to the table and he set the kids down. He said, Hi to the Mom and she looked at him and said, looks like the program is agreeing with you. Matthew said, ya. We have a good thing going over there. Everyone was so happy. Scott was the last one to come around the building. He had to make sure everyone checked out. Katarina was standing against a tree waiting for him. We heard this OMG. We all looked to see what was going on. Scott had picked Katarina up with his hands under her butt and was turning in circles. He was yelling out loud, are you sure? She said, yes. Scott yelled again OMG. Then he said, what are we going to do? Katarina said, well first you have to put me down so we can go to dinner. We were all watching intensely. Scott put her down and was kissing her face saying, you have made me the happiest man in the whole word. Scott took her hand and said, let’s go feed the family. We all thought family? She must be pregnant. Matthew said, I have never seen Scott so happy. Everyone smiled. Carter and Melissa couldn’t keep their hands off each other during dinner. The same with Walker and Jade. As soon as they finished dinner they excused them self’s saying they needed to go home. Matthew had one child on each knee, the twins in their carriers on the table in front of him and everyone was laughing and eating. It was so great. Matthew looked at Mom when Walker, Jade, Carter and Melissa left and said to Mom, newlyweds. Mom smiled looking at Matthew thinking if he didn’t have a child on each knee he would be gone too. After Matthew ate with Hunter and Wyatt. He hugged, kissed and spent time with the twins. He then said to Mom, I need to go catch up with my wife if it is ok? Mom said, I will take care of the kids and bring them to you later. Matthew kissed her on the head and said, thankyou. Hunter and Wyatt didn’t want him to leave but Matthew said, I have to go talk to Mommie. Grandma will bring you to the room soon and we will all have the weekend. The kids were not crazy about it.
Matthew took my hand and we walked off. Matthew was kissing my hand and telling me how he missed me and the kids. I told him we missed him very much but knew what he was doing was important. We were very quite and in control until we reached the elevator. Once in the elevator he gently pushed me against the wall. He gave me a very passionate kiss while pushing the button. When the door was closed he put his hand under my skirt. I started undoing his pants and belt. When I got them undone, I started to put my hand in his pants and he grabbed my wrist. He said, don’t. I am so hot I don’t know if I would make it to the bedroom. I understood completely. Just him touching me down there I was about to come. The elevator door opened. We walked quickly to the door and he put his hand on the door security. When we got in and shut the door, we shed our clothes as quickly as possible. There was no thinking. Just lust. Just wanting his skin next to mine. He pushed me back on the bed. We had the longing, the heat and the wanting so bad. I felt like a teen in heat. He took one of my legs in each hand. Raising my legs up he put himself inside me. God, it felt so good to have him back. He just stood there for what seemed like a few minutes. Just basking in the feeling of being home. He had been gone for what 3 weeks? I came like he had been gone for months. It was all over in a few minutes but we wanted it to last forever. We didn’t move for a few seconds and then he moved back taking himself out and put my legs down. He put his arms around me standing me up and holding me again him. He was kissing me and said, he was sorry it went so fast. He said, I will make love to you properly later. He said, let’s take a shower. I said, that sounds great. I love showers with him. He took my hand and led me to the shower. He reached in, turned it on and checked the temperature. He then helped me step in and then he got in. I looked at him. His muscles were bigger and he looked really healthy. He looked so great. He put soap on my hair, washed my hair and rinsed it. He then took the soap and started putting it on his chest. I reached for it and said, let me do it. He said, let me do my under arms and then I will give it to you. He ran the soap under his arm pits. Rinsed the soap and hand it to me. I said, turn around I want to start with his back. I started on top of his shoulders and was moving slowly down his back. His tattoo covered most of his back and was so beautiful. I did his whole back including his legs. I ran the soap between his buttocks. He kind of laughed. I turned him around and said, you need to rinse there carefully. He reached back there and did that. I looked and his penis was standing up and so strong. I started on his front shoulders and then headed down his chest all the way to his penis. I ran the soap around his penis and balls. Then he rinsed everything. I look at his penis and said, what’s this. I went down on one knee thinking he would stop me if he didn’t want this. I licked his penis. He didn’t stop me and I said, nice and clean. I put the other knee down and put my mouth on his penis. It was just as beautiful as him. He put one hand on the top of the shower door and one on the wall. As I moved his penis in and out of my mouth I loved his moaning. He was really enjoying it. I focused my attention on what I was doing and started putting him as deep as possible in my mouth. I love the fact that it was making him moan. I could tell he was getting there. I almost came just know he was loving this. All of a sudden he let out big moan when he came. He was weak for a few seconds and then he stood me up and kissed me. He didn’t want to let me go. He said, woman you really know how to turn me on. I was so happy. He took the soap and soaped me down and rinsed me off. He washed his penis again and said, we better get out. We are using a lot of water. He turned the water off and took a towel. He dried me off and helped me out of the shower while wrapping a towel around my hair. I went pee and brushed my teeth. I went and laid on the bed. It felt so good. I was so satisfied, happy and the sheets felt so cool. After he dried, he came and laid on the bed next to me. He felt as good as me. After a while he turned on his side next to me and started kissing me all over my face. He said, I love you so much. We should put some clothes on so we are not naked when Mom shows with the kids. I said, that’s true. Ah, I have to put on pj’s. I love the feel of the sheets. He said, I agree. We got up and found clothes so we would be acceptable when Mom showed. Matthew sat at the table and said, I have to go early every morning for a run with the men. So if you wake up and I am not here I will be back soon. I have to go back early Monday morning. I said, that is great! We get all that time together. He reached in the fridge and grabbed a protein drink and drank it. Mom knocked on the door and Matthew answered it. Hunter and Wyatt couldn’t get out of their stroller fast enough. Running toward Matthew and yelling Daddy. I looked at them and thought. I have to give him back to the kids again. The twins started crying. You could tell they wanted daddy. He put all the kids on the floor. He had Hunter and Wyatt get some toys for them to play with him. He took the twins out one at a time. Kissing them and hugging them. He then put them back in the carriers. He would take them out every 15 or 20 minutes. They had a great time until bed. Matthew tucked them all in their beds. Matthew said to me, this has been so great.
THURSDAY JULY 4 FIREWORKS DAY God this was a great day. Matthew woke me around 4am kissing me on the ear. It is so great to have him wake me and tell me how much he loves me. How cruel life is to keep him from me while he accomplices his goals. He made love to me like he was never going to get to make love to me again. Like he never wanted me to forget he loves me. Afterward he kissed me and said I need to go back to sleep. I told him I loved him and went back to sleep feeling so good. He went out for a run with his group. When Mom came we got up and we all got up and went out to the pool for breakfast. People were out there setting up for the fireworks show tonight.
Shortly after we got there Conner showed with his 2 boys Jack 16 and Shawn 14. They didn’t go on a run with Matthew’s group today. Today they were going to spend with their dad over here and then watch the fireworks. Matthew came and ate and then went back to our room to clean up and change clothes. At breakfast so many people were there. The kitchen added more tables with little flags. All of Matthew’s group with wife’s or girl friends or just by them self. Some had back backs on. Conner said it was part of training. We were all family so Matthew wanted everyone to free welcome. An hour and a half before lunch we went swimming. The pool had so many people in it. After lunch Matthew played with all the kids until nap time. Mom and I took the kids back to our room because Matthew didn’t want them to be tired tonight. Matthew had to make sure Sergeant was going to take care of the goats tonight because of the noise. Its so amazing how she seems to know just what Matthew says. She is so sweet and the kids love her. She doesn’t remind me of a Sergeant. Mom didn’t let us go back out until a few minutes before dinner. Hunter didn’t want to stay in her bed and didn’t understand why she had to. She would roll her lips in and look at Mom like she was saying, what is this? Mom would say, you stop that little lady and lay down. She would lay down. When we got there the tables were almost full. The pool had lots of people and the same for the lawn that looks over the city where the fireworks will be. There were several stands that was going to have snacks, drinks, popcorn and lights for the kids. Mom said to me, five years ago this was not happening. Matthew as really changed this place for the better.
When it started getting dark, Matthew put some blankets down for us among the other people. He even hugged a few men and said, he was so glad to see you brother. There faces really light up when he calls them Brother. Matthew said to me, just before the lights start could you get some juice boxes and a large popcorn. So when the time was right I went to fetch everything and came back with everything. Mom was taking care of the twins. She put these little head phones playing calming music to put them to sleep in hopes they would not be upset by the noise. When the fireworks started Matthew was sitting cross legged with the popcorn in the middle and Hunter on one leg or knee and Wyatt on the other. He had an arm around each one. It was such a great picture. Everyone was so happy especially Matthew. He would look at me sometimes and smile really big. Matthew said, he needed more juice boxes so I went and came back with them and these great lights. Fiber Optic Stars & Stripes LED Light Wands. Matthew said, these are great. Maybe it will take their mind of the juice boxes. On the other side was Joseph, his wife and 2 boys. The whole lawn everywhere was covered with people. You could see the fire works really clearly and everyone was so happy. I will always remember Matthew sitting there with the kids on his knees and the popcorn in the middle. The fireworks ended at 10pm. Way passed their bed time. When Matthew took the kids back to the room he told Mom they might need big diapers for all the juice. Mom said, don’t worry we will take care of everything. After Mom was done getting them ready for bed she gave them to Matthew. He put them in their beds with a kiss and tucked them in. They went right to sleep. I came out of the bathroom in my PJs. I feel like a kid having to sleep in them but too many people come through. I kissed Matthew and got in bed. I went right to sleep when my head hit the pillow.
FRIDAY JULY 5 Matthew didn’t wake me up. He said, I looked like an Angle sleeping so good. He went for the run and came back. We ate in the room down stairs. The kids were tired. We took them to the family room. Matthew played with them awhile and went off to talk to his men. He had asked Mom if he could take me to date night. She said, no problem. That the kids may be going to bed early. I was so excited. He came back with Sergeant. Several of the other kids came over and wanted to pet her. She is so wonderful. This was the day Katarina was to go to court. Scott was going with her. I had asked her a few days ago what she was going to say. She told me she was going to throw her self on the mercy of the court for what she did. She said, I am being charge with excessive force. There was no reason for me freak out and beat those men out like that. I could have taken them down and then called for someone to take them away. I hopped everything went well for her.
Matthew came to our room an hour before dinner, changed clothes and picked me up. He took my hand and we went down stairs to find our table. The table had beautiful flower center pieces and they had that ball in the ceiling on. No one was to have alcohol so they brought everyone juice. Matthew said, he didn’t know if he would ever be able to drink alcohol again because of his training programs. Matthew pulled me close when we danced and everything was so great. God, I love it when I am in his arms. The dinner was great and the movie was a love story. Matthew had pulled my chair right next to him so he could put his arm around me. He would kiss me now and then. He kept kissing my hand and told me that if there is a such thing as a soul mate I was it. He said, he was so happy to have the kids and me. He said, several times I love you so much. At the end of the evening he took me up stairs to our old room next to the room the kids were in so we could be alone. He made love to me like he was never going to see me again and my head was in the clouds. It was so great. Around midnight we took a shower and we went back to bed. He pulled me onto his shoulder and wrapped his arm around me. I felt so good and sleeping naked was great. I don’t know when he slipped out of bed because he wanted me to get my sleep.