6/20/2019
Its been a while since I wrote in my diary. The last time I wrote I had not been feeling well. I went to the doctor and had a physical. The nurse called a day or two later and said all my test were fine except for high cholesterol. And then she said but there was one thing. You ladies might what I mean, she said the test was positive. Yep that right, something in the oven. Lisa records everything, video, and audio so she knew. But someone else on her team heard, told Jeff and Mark. I could hear Jeff and Mark arguing all the time. It’s mine. No, its mine. I was the last one she had sex with. Lisa asked me, “who’s baby is it?” I told her it was mine. Tell those two to go home. George the director called to find the doctor overseas or a report. And find out if he knew anything. I tried to stay at my house to avoid all the arguing. Someone of the base camp read the report to her. The two guys who were over there said they never saw any touch me in a sexual way only beat me. And they never saw anyone hit me in the stomach, just everywhere else. They reported that once they took me outside and they heard me yelling at them fluent in their language. Something about their god had given me a child who would grow up to lead them on the right path because this man who called himself their leader was leading them to destruction. The two guys thought maybe that is why they started giving everyone food and water.
Mark got Jeff sent on a job so he could get me to come over because he wanted me to tell everyone it was his baby. Ten days ago I started having terrible cramps. I lost the baby. Mark was very mad. I thought he was going to hit me but put his fist through a door and then left. Jeff called to check on me and Lisa told him what happened. He was disappointed. He said he didn’t care whose baby it was, he would love it because it was mine.
I tried to stay home. Jeff came back and Mark came over and was talking to George. George had some courier jobs for them but they need to leave this program and go to another program so they did. They both left. For a couple of days, everything was really quiet. Then Mark showed up. He said he had nowhere to sleep and went into my room. He kept calling, asking me to come over. He wants to apologize for his outburst. I was feeling really bad and told him I couldn’t. They said the next morning he left.
Thursday morning I woke up in bed over there. It had been really quiet and George said Mark and Jeff were gone and I had a new owner. I asked George if the new owner was bringing a dog collar for his new show dog. No one asks me about all this shit and it just gets to me. I haven’t been paid and I have problems and bills of my own. I told George I wasn’t going to work for anyone.
I was in the kitchen fixing toast. I was wearing my long skirt, a blouse that hangs off my shoulders and barefoot. I pulled one piece of toast out of the toaster in my left hand. I took the other piece out With my right hand and put it in my mouth.
All of a sudden someone took my right hand. Turned me around and pushed me up against the wall. It was Jeff. He had a hold of my left wrist with my hand above my hand. He was staring into my eyes. Those beautiful eyes. I was thinking of the great relationship we had last summer. I took the toast out of my mouth with my right hand. Jeff then took my right wrist and put it above my head and push up against me. He was very hard and excited. He kissed me, putting his tongue down my thought. It was such a passionate kiss. I forgot where I was when Lisa yelled at Jeff. Don’t do that in the kitchen. I have told you over and over. Jeff looked at her. He then let go on one wrist and took me by my other risk. He started to lead me to the bedroom. He stopped just for a second to take the toast from me and leave them on the kitchen cabinet. He leads me to the bedroom, shut the door and pushed me up against the bedroom wall. He kissed me again. His tongue in my mouth and his hand on my breast, I forgot where I was again. He stopped and went under my skirt. The pleasure his tongue was giving me I thought I was going to come. I was so excited I wanted to say stop because I could stand it any more, but then I wanted to say don’t stop. He didn’t even take my panties off. He just pushed them to one side. He then came up, push my panties to one side and put himself inside me. He felt so good. He started going up and down. All I could do was gasp for air. The pleasure was so great. I think it was only the third time when he plunged himself deep inside me. I came. I came so hard, so hard. All I could say was oh my, oh my goodness and then he came. It felt so so good but only lasted a few minutes. He then went into the bathroom and cleaned up. He came back and kissed me saying, “I love you so much I can stand it.” He then went out the door, threw the kitchen and out the side door. He wasn’t supposed to come to the house anymore. He left in a hurry worrying George would catch him. I followed him to the kitchen and retrieved my toast. Lisa was sitting at the table looking sternly at me. I turned to her and said, ” It never happened.” Took the toast and went back into the bedroom. I ate the toast and went back to bed. Woke up later, went home and feed the dog.