01/18/2019
Didn’t get up until 10: am. It’s a good thing that I don’t have school today I would have missed it. I didn’t get to sleep until 2:30 so that’s not bad. Eight hours. I was really sick when I went to bed. I slept in my own bed, but then David is gone. I really missed him this morning. The feeling of his warm skin against mine. When he wrapped his arm around me while I had my head on his shoulder. Even his warm breath blowing on me as he was sleeping. It was the greatest feeling in the world. My contact comfort. All my worries and pains would disappear. I would shut my eyes and be out like a light. And at 5 am. OH, wow he sure knew how to make me feel good. He would tell me that after he made love to me in the morning, he would get up and take a shower. He would eat something and start work or go to work. He said, “I fell so good, so energized, so clear headed. I get so much done and accomplished. I am so happy all day and really miss you. I can’t wait to see you. I think about us having a child. it’s just a great life with you.” Well, I thought he was happy but obviously, he wasn’t that happy that he just jumped up and left. They say he went over to his ex-wife’s. Everyone hates her because all she wants from him is money. That’s hard to understand because I don’t want his money I just want him. Its going to be one of those Friday nights like the song by Sam Cooke.
Another Saturday night
And I ain’t got nobody.