FRIDAY JUNE 30 The chair

It was 4:30am while I was breast feeding the baby when a message came across my phone. It was Matthew and he was in our room. he wanted to know if he could come down and get me. I said, No. I will come up when I was finished with the baby. After I was sure the baby was all taken care of I put him back in the bed. He seemed to be very happy and shut his eyes. I went to the door and outside was my wheel chair. I quietly shut the door and started unfolding the wheel chair. Scott was out there and came over and helped. When I sat in the chair Scott took me to the elevator and I wheeled the chair in and turned around to face the front. Scott said, Thankyou. I replied, for what? He said, for trying to stay in the chair. I smiled and the doors closed. Up stairs I opened the door and was trying to wheel the chair in when Matthew came to the door in his birthday suit to help. He pulled the chair in and shut the door. He pushed me to the bed and said what’s with the chair? I replied, doctor’s orders. She said, I have been doing too much and she put me in the chair. He took my hand and started kissing it. Then up my arm to my neck. He then stood me up and took my top off. He continued to kiss me all over and tell me how he missed me and the kids. He turned me around so I could sit on the bed and he could continued taking my clothes off. He said, I know its only been a couple of days but you are all I can think about when I am gone. He continued kissing me all over. Then he put me on the bed and got between my legs. He continued kissing me. It was so great I missed him also. I felt his hand rubbing me down there and then he put his finger in my vagina. I missed him so much I thought I am going to pop right now. He started sucking on one breast and rubbing the other one with his other hand. I was gone. I was in the zone where there was no one but the two of us in the whole world. Then he took his finger out and put himself inside me. I gasped it felt so good. He started going up and down and I gasped for air. I could feel it building and it felt like it was going to be really good. Then we came. I was so glad we came together. After a few minutes he moved down so his head was on my stomach. He was laying there and after some time I said, how was your trip? He looked up at me and smiled. Jean and I got everything we wanted and more. Our lawyer ripped them a new ass hole for coming here and up setting you especially while I was not home. I smiled and said, That’s is great. He got up and moved to his pillow, then pulled me over to his shoulder and covered me will the sheet. He then said, Tell me about the chair? I said, I got weak and the doctor said I had been doing too much. Too much gym, swimming, treadmill, and then I am breast feeding. He said, really. He got up and said, I have to go to the bathroom. When he came back he stood at the end of the bed with this unhappy look and clenching his teeth. He said, Did you jump? I looked at him thinking why did I do it. I replied, yes. He started clinching his teeth more and walking back and forth at the end of the bed. He said, Why, I have talked to you about this. How many times did you jump? I replied, just once. He said, don’t lie to me. Just once would not make you sick. I came back, I am not lying. Just once. He then said, When you did it in the hotel we had everything planed so you would be safe. You promised you would not do it especially when I am not here. That didn’t make you sick. I said, I am sorry. I wasn’t thinking. He came and sat on the bed and angrily said, tell me why? I told him how I heard a noise and came up here to the safe room to check it out. There was a guy on the monitor behind a bush with a gun. I saw this stun gun on the shelf and didn’t stop to think. I jumped behind the bush near the door and stunned him. He looked at me and said, that is why I left Scott and Paul to take care of things. I said, I know. Like I said I didn’t think. But the doctor had a talk with me and I am sure I will think before I ever do anything again. He said, I am so fucking mad at you. I need to be able to trust you. He was fuming. He got off the bed and was pacing back and forth at the end of the bed with his fist clenched. He didn’t believe me. I had never seen him so mad. If you ever do it again I am putting you outside the gate and you will never see me or the kids again. When I heard that it really hurt. He looked at me and tears were gathering in my eyes. He said, What did the doctor say to you? I was shaking and said, she said I have to stay in the chair until the wedding. She then put me on this body builder diet and talked to me about my internal battery. She said, I am using my battery to live on and I am breast feeding the baby which takes a lot from the battery and a jump drains it like putting Christmas lights all over your house. Also I have a new one now depending on the battery so I can’t put unnecessary stress on the battery. He looked at me and said, a new one. You don’t mean? I smiled really big still with tears in my eyes and said yes. He started to smile and said, another one? I smiled really big and said, yes a brother or sister for our two. He scooped me up in his arms and was hugging me and kissing me and saying, I can’t believe this. This is so great. I replied, I know. I am so happy. He then said, would you mind if we just stay here in our room until lunch. I have another trip next week and I want to be alone with you as much as possible. I said, sounds great. He laid down and I put my head on his shoulder. He text Mom and said we wanted to stay in our room until lunch and could she take care of the kids. Mom texted back that, that would be fine. Then he texted Scott and asked if he could help Mom with the kids and then he texted the kitchen asking if they could bring us breakfast up here. Everyone text back there would be no problem. I looked at him and said, I am really going to miss you when you go next week and he said, I know but I have been trying to get into the place for a couple of years. It’s really hard to get to go there. Just money will not get you in. Jean is going with me. Now tell me everything word for word the doctor said. I started by telling him the doctor drew this oval on the board. After I was finished he said, you are going to follow everything the doctor says, right? I looked at him and said, no question. Everything the doctor says. He just wanted to hold me and even though I wasn’t tired I fell asleep until there was a knock at the door. It was breakfast and I was starved. Matthew put everything on the table. I put my robe on and sat at the table. I ate everything on my plate. I was starved. It was so good and I felt really good. Matthew said, How are you feeling? I replied, great. I felt really good. He smiled and said, want to take a shower? I said, ah, that sound really nice. He took my hand and lead me to the shower. I was thinking Oh boy this is going to be nice. We got in the shower and he started by washing my hair. It was so nice and he was so happy. 180 degrees from when he was yelling at me. I think he thought I was jumping all over the place doing things because he couldn’t believe one jump would make me sick. After he was done with my hair he washed his hair. He then took the soap and started at my neck and then to my breast. A round and round and he kept kissing me. After the breast he worked his way down with the soap between my legs. His touch and the soap was so erotic and was building on this desire I already had for him to make love to me. When I stepped into the shower and looked at him. His build and muscles alone I would think any women would be at his feet but he was my husband and he could have his way with me anytime he wanted and I would be happy. He then turned me around and started washing my back. Everything felt so good. He turn me around so I was under the water that was spraying on his back. He then bent me over and took each of my hands placing them on the wall. He separated my legs, I felt the soap and then he put himself inside me. Oh god I was gone. I had gone from the pleasure of the soap massage to such a sexual desire and erotic enjoyment. I was in that area again that there was no one in the world but him and me. He had away of making me feel so good that there are no words to describe it. Then we came and did we come. I was better than it had been for a long time. My legs became weak. He leaned over on my back putting one hand under my waist and the other on the wall. After awhile he took himself out and stood me up with my back against the wall and the water flowing behind him. He was kissing me and saying I love you so much. He look at me with tears building in his eyes and said, I love you so much. My whole changed when I met you. I was an angry person that just wanted to kill everyone and never though I would have someone to make my life great. Please don’t ever leave me. I was confused. I would never leave him. What makes him think I would. He’s a perfect husband and father. I’m the fuck up. I hugged him and said I love you very much and would never do anything like that. I looked at him with a big smile and said, besides didn’t our wedding vows say until death do us part? He smiled really big and said, ya, that means you have to put up with me until the very end. We finished our shower. I got to wash back and chest. I love washing his back and chest it’s such a turn on. Then we got ready to go out to the pool side. He wore his swim shorts and a shirt so he could spend the morning in the pool with the kids.

Everyone was out there that wasn’t working. The kids were laughing and it was great. I was in the wheel chair and Matthew took Hunter in the pool. He was teaching her to swim. He call Serena into the pool and showed her what and how he was teaching her. He asked her if she would take Hunter in the pool everyday while he was gone and teach her to swim. Serena said it would be fine. She would love to teacher her to swim. When he took Wyatt the baby in the pool he called Daniela over who was already in the pool with her boys and showed her what he was teaching the baby and asked if she would take the baby in the pool once a day to work on swimming while he was gone. Matthew was so happy and so were the kids. He spent most of the morning in the pool with the kids and had Hunter on his lap during lunch. An hour after lunch some man came out to tell Matthew and Jean they had a fitting for the wedding. Matthew took my hand, gave me a kiss and said, I have to go for a fitting. He was off with Jean and couple of the other guys. I was thinking this wedding is going to be really nice. I took the baby and Mom played with Hunter for a few minutes when she got very sleepy and had to take a nap.

The rest on the day was great except I was stuck in the chair and my butt hurt. When it came time to go to our rooms Mom was going to take the kids to her room so we could be alone. Mom put them in the double stroller. Hunter had a fit and tried to get out of the stroller. She was screaming at the top of her lungs “daddy”. Tears started building in Matthews eyes and he jumped up and said I can’t do it. He yelled at Mom, wait up. He ran up to her and told her he changed his mind and was taking the kids to his room. He took Hunter out of the stroller and said, he would meet Mom in his room. Mom said, that was fine. He sat Hunter on my lap and pushed the wheel chair to our room. He hugged his mom and said, thankyou. After he shut the door he said to me, you don’t mine do you. I said, of course not. You are leaving soon and should get to spend as much time as you want with your kids. After the kids were asleep I got out my Muscle Milk and drank it. Now I was ready for bed. I was in bed asleep maybe an hour and a half when I had to throw up. I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom and threw up in the sink. Matthew came to see what was up. He said you couldn’t make it to the toilet. I replied, No I tried. I threw up my Muscle Milk but I don’t think I lost any dinner. When we went back to bed Matthew grabbed the little trash can and put it by the bed. He said, here next time you can use this. I smiled at him and texted Scott what happened. I went back to sleep. I was sleeping on Matthew’s shoulder with my arm across his chest. It was great. The whole day was great even though my butt hurt from that chair.