FRIDAY JANUARY 5

I was sleeping really well in the early morning when the baby nurse woke me to give me a baby. Matthew left a text on my phone that he had to work because Conner and him were working in place of people who worked during the holiday’s so they could spend time with their families. He said I would not see him very much until Monday. It said he loved me very much and hoped I understood. I texted back that I loved him very much and understood. We will all be here when you finish your work. In the morning that baby nurse left and the one who comes in the mornings showed up. When Mom came she said, she didn’t want to go to eat until maybe Monday. That all meals were being brought to our room. I told her Matthew had to work if she wanted to take naps and sleep on the bed. She said she might start taking naps with the kids and I. The day went really well. The day baby nurse stayed until the night nurse came. Mom went to sleep on the bed for naps and when I went to sleep tonight. I was feeling really well today. Part of it was I had helped the pregnant woman. I realized from the experience that I needed to exercise and watch more closely what I eat.

SATURDAY JANUARY 6 In the morning I woke with more text from Matthew. He wanted to know if I was fine and he loved me. I told him I was great and that Mom stayed the night. I also texted I love you and hope everything was going well. The day in our room was good. I made a plan on exercise to get healthy. I also started counting my protein and other things. I must have been really low on things when I jumped. I fell asleep when my head hit the pillow.

SUNDAY JANUARY 7 I woke feeling good even though the baby nurse had woke me several times during the night. I really liked the new breast pump. The naps really helped. Matthew’s text asked how I was doing and he loved me. He said he would be able to come home tonight and go to breakfast in the morning. I told Mom and she said, that was great. She said, she wanted to start going to breakfast in the mornings. It was a good quite day with Mom, the baby nurse, Amy and the kids. I was excited that I was going to see Matthew.

MONDAY JANUARY 8 I woke up about 2 hours after I went to sleep. I was so hot. These pajamas were so hot and the baby nurse was keeping the room warm for the babies. I went to the bathroom and found some pajamas that were shorts and a cooler blouse. I miss the days of sleeping naked up next to Matthew. Since I was up I used the breast pump to put milk in the fridge. I went back to sleep and the next time I was awaken it was by Matthew. He was waking me to feed the babies. I loved his smiling face. He said, some one was looking for mama. I went back to sleep and Matthew woke me with a kiss. He said, it was time to get ready to go to breakfast. I needed to take a shower and take care of the babies. I thought while I was in the shower how great my life was and that this year was going to be great. After breakfast Matthew had to go to work and didn’t know when he would be back. They had showers at work and the new food table. He said, Carlson and him where working on work schedules. Also the plan for the new training center. I told him I totally understand. Back at our room I was talking to Mom and told her I wanted to get more fit and new clothes so I would look really good for Matthew. I wanted him to be proud of me when we went out. She said she would get some catalogs and we would pick out some clothes.

TUESDAY JANUARY 9 Matthew went to breakfast but said he would be gone all day. That next week after the holiday should be better. Cindy was back so she would stay in my room until the baby nurse came. This way the baby nurse could come later at night. I was a good day. I am just so happy. Everyone is well and everything is great.

TUESDAY JANUARY 9 I don’t know what to write because everything is great. I am trying to run a lot on the treadmill and go miles on the bike. Hunter and Wyatt were so much run to play with today. When I pick up a baby Hunter runs and gets her baby and holds it up for me to see. She says, baby. I am so happy. I feel I can accomplish anything I set my mind to.

WEDNESDAY JANUARY 10 This was another good day. I talked to Mom about the fact that a treat mill and bike wasn’t doing it. She helped me look on Youtube and find a program that covered the whole body.

THURSDAY JANUARY 11 Matthew has been going to breakfast with us but then I didn’t see him unless I woke in the middle of the night to go pee. He said, next week would be better. He told me about the food set up that Carlson, Conner and him had come up with meals was working out really well. Everyone was so happy with it.

THURSDAY JANUARY 12 I woke up around 2am and Matthew was sleeping with a baby in his daddy shirt. He only had his daddy shirt and underwear on with no covers. I think he was having trouble that the room was so warm.

FRIDAY JANUARY 12 I woke up around 5am and Matthew was gone. Cindy was watching the babies. I missed him but maybe he will soon be at breakfast every morning. He texted he loved me but this was a 3 day weekend and he would not see me much.

SATURDAY JANUARY 13 Just another good day. I didn’t see Matthew. He was gone when I woke up. There was a message on my phone that someone got sick and Carlson was camping with his family so he had to go. He also stated I love and miss you very much.

SUNDAY JANUARY 14 Another great day except I didn’t see Matthew. Mom and I looked at woman’s clothing magazines. I wanted to get some new clothes and look good. I didn’t want to look provocative but good. I also talked to Mom about having my hair done. I have been putting it in a braid because it is getting long. Matthew sent me several messages today that he missed me and loved me. He said, he would not be home on Monday because Carlson had gone camping and fishing with his family for the 3 day weekend. He asked if he needed to come by and take me to the clinic on Monday. The babies and I were having a check up. I texted back that I had plenty of help with Mom, Cindy and Amy. I told him I loved him very much and can’t wait until he is able to come home. He texted, when Carlson and some other people got back he would be able to stay home more. I really did miss him but tried not to think about it. I was just glad to have him back. I have to go to the doctor in the morning. Its checkup time for me and the babies.