I heard a crying baby and Matthews voice. Matthew was saying, Honey could you wake up? I have a hungry baby and she really needs some milk. I opened one eye and looked at the clock. It was 4:45am. I said, can’t you give her a bottle? I am trying to sleep.
Matthew was explaining he give them bottles earlier when I looked down and the crying baby had caused my breast to leak. They also were really swollen. I said, never mind. Hand me the baby. Could you get me a towel and a new gown? This one is all wet. He looked and me. I sat up and he handed me the baby. I put her between my legs then took off my gown. Matthew handed me the towel and I took the wet gown off. Matthew placed it in the shower. I cleaned up, put the new gown on and started breast feeding the baby. When I finish with her the other one started crying and I had to take care of him. When I finished I got under the covers and went back to sleep. I didn’t feel like a mother taking care of her children but a job I needed to do. I wanted someone else to take care of them.
It wasn’t long until the doctor came in at 6am. I heard this Angel can you wake up and talk to me? I opened my eyes to see the doctor. So I sat up in bed and sat back against the pillow. The doctor said, How are you doing today? I said, good, but can’t seem to get any sleep. Someone keeps waking me up. The doctor gave Matthew a strange look. She then said to me, it seems you are not eating? I said, I have not been hungry and just want to sleep. She said, your chart looks good. Do you have anything I should know about? I said, no. She said, we might send you home if you eat your breakfast. I said, ok. She said, I will be back later to check on you. Matthew said to the doctor, can I talk to you? The doctor said, come with me. Matthew and the doctor went outside but the guard was there and Matthew couldn’t say anything, so the doctor said, come walk with me. Down the hall Matthew said, Angel is not herself. She is cold to me and not interested in feeding the kids. The doctor said, has she said anything to you? Matthew replied, no that’s just it. She wants everyone to go away. The doctor said, why don’t I have Dr. Walton visit her. She may be suffering from some kind of PTSD. Matthew said, thankyou. Matthew returned to Angel’s room and outside was his six men. They all wanted to know if they could do something for him. He told them he really appreciated them and having a guard at Angel’s hospital door was all for right now. If they send her home today I will need someone to bring Mom over with the double stroller for the babies.
They all started talking at the same time. You can call me. Matthew said, why don’t I tell Don here or who is here to call one of you? Everyone said, ok. Matthew said, you guys are great. I will get back to my wife now and went in the room. Matthew went in and Angel was back to sleep. He sat in the chair watching the babies and thinking about what could be wrong with Angel? She had always been a strong type. A warrior type. Could she really have PTSD or was she wanting Scott because he was younger man and saved the twins. Maybe she hated him for letting this happen? He decided to meditate and try to let his worries go.
They brought breakfast and Matthew looked at it. It was everything Angel like to eat. Matthew took Angel’s hand kissed it. Saying Honey breakfast is here. Trying to show he loved her. Matthew said, can you wake up and eat? Angel replied, do I have to? I just want to sleep. Matthew replied, the doctor said she wants you to eat something to keep you strength up. Here let me help you sit up and get you started. Everything they brought you, you really like. He helped her sit up. Pulled the tray close and opened her milk. She took a couple of bites of the scrambled eggs and looked at Matthew thinking I don’t know if I can eat this. Matthew noticed she was picking the food and said, do you want something else to eat?
Angel looked at him and said, no. Maybe I my need to go to the bathroom. Angel pushed the tray away and went to the bathroom. She stayed in the bathroom as long as possible. Came out and got in bed. She stared at the food and then Matthew. She thought maybe if I eat some of this he will let me go back to sleep. Thinking a girl has got to do what a girl has got to do. Picked up the fork and tried to eat. Nothing tasted good but the fruit and the milk just made her sleeper. She ate the fruit and a piece of toast. Then pushed the tray away and went back to sleep.
About lunch a baby started crying. Angel was sleeping so Matthew took a bottle from the fridge. After warming the bottle Matthew presented it to the baby. The baby didn’t want it. She would push it away and cry harder. He tried getting milk on her lips but it didn’t work. Matthew picked her up and tried again. The baby would again push it away and cry louder. Angel opened her eyes because the baby was crying really loud. Matthew went to Angels bed side with the crying baby. Matthew said, sweety the baby will not take the bottle. She only wants her mama. Angel rolled her eyes and huffed. She then sat up and took the baby to feed. After she was done the other baby cried. This was normal. Matthew tried to feed him with the bottle but got the same response. The baby just pushed the bottle away. He then took the baby to Angel to feed. After feeding the baby Angel was going to go back to sleep when lunch showed. They put the tray on her table. Pushed it up to her and took the cover off the food. The nurse left. Angel stared at the beef stroganoff and under her breath said, oh. Shit. She was thinking they are going to expect me to eat this and I just want to go to sleep. While staring at the food she noticed Matthew watching her. She thought maybe if I jump somewhere I can get away from him and the noisy kids. She couldn’t think of anywhere to go. Matthew said, do you want something else. Angel yawned and said, no this is great. I am just so tired. Matthew started opening the protein drink. Matthew said, maybe this protein drink would help? He handed it to her. She thought, possible and started drinking it. When she had drank 3/4 of it. Then she sat it down, pushed the tray away and went back to sleep. Matthew put the cover back on the food.
An hour went by. A nurse came in and picked up the cover looking at the food. She then replaced the cover and left
Another hour went by and Dr Walford showed up. He lifted the cover on the food and then covered it. He said to Matthew, could you go out while I talk to Angel. Matthew said, sure. He went out and sat on a bench with the guard. Dr. Walford sternly said, Angel, I have a busy schedule today and have made time for you. So I need you to sit up and talk to me. Angel opened her eyes and decided to sit up. Dr Walford said, what seems to be the problem? Angel looked at him and said, I am just really tired and Matthew with these crying babies will not let me sleep. Dr. Walford said, Are you unhappy with Matthew?
Angel said, no. Why do you ask?
Dr. Walton said, you don’t seem to be yourself. I haven’t seen you smile. Dr. Walton pulled up a chair and set down. Dr. Walton said, be honest with me. Do you love Matthew? Angel said, I guess so. He looked at her. Dr. Walton said, tell me how do you feel about Matthew? Angel thought for a minute and said, I don’t feel I belong here. Dr. Walton said, Did Matthew say something to upset you? Angel said, no.
Dr. Walton said, you didn’t answer my question. Do you love Matthew?
Angel said, I don’t feel anything when it comes to Matthew?
Dr. Walton said, Do you want Scott?
Angel replied, No. I don’t feel anything towards Scott.
The doctor look at her a minute and said, do you love the twins?
Angel looked at the baby beds and then said, do I love the twins?
Angel looked at him and then said, I don’t feel love toward anyone.
The doctor replied, you said you don’t feel you belong?
Angel said, yes. I don’t feel anything here. Like I am in the wrong place.
Dr. Walton, if you were to leave where would you go?
Angel said, the only thing I feel is this hate. I want to go find the people who kidnapped me and tear them in pieces and then find the people who try to kill Matthew and take my babies
I then will tear them in pieces.
Dr. Walton said, will that make feel better.
Angel said, maybe it would get rid of this raging hate. I want to pound those people in a pile of mush. That would make me feel better.
Dr. Walton said, if I ask you to stay here and see if we can deal with these problems together, would you do it?
Angel said, you think I can get rid of these feelings and get my life back?
Dr. Walton said, yes but we have to work together. I want to see you every day. You have to tell me how feel and if you have a strong urge to leave, day or night. I need you to call me? Can you do that?
Angel said, I will try. I really want to get rid of this feeling. I don’t feel in control.
Dr Walton, I need you to do me another thing.
Angel said, what is that?
Dr. Walton said, Matthew loves you very much. Please don’t break his heart.
Angel said, I will try my best.
Dr Walton said, Also, Scott loves you very much and if you left he would go looking for you. He could get himself killed trying to find you. Would you want that on you conscience?
Angel said, no.
Dr Walton said, ok. I am going to have the nurse give you something and have you go home. I want you to concentrate on taking care of the kids and call me if you start have to much of a problem. I will come see you after breakfast tomorrow. We will get through this and you will be stronger than before all this stuff happened.
The doctor pushed the nurse call button.
Angel said, thankyou.
The nurse came in and Matthew followed. He told the nurse what to get Angel. He then said to Matthew, she is having a real problem with what happened. I am going to give her some medication and you can take her home. If she starts having to much of a problem call me. It doesn’t matter what time it is
Matthew said, thankyou doctor.
Matthew asked the guard if he could send someone for his Mom. Matthew then handed Angel some clothes and said, do you want me to help you change?
Angel said, no and went in the bathroom and changed. Matthew started gathering everything they needed to leave.
It wasn’t long until Mom showed. Matthew put the babies in the double stroller and everyone headed to the house. Ivan pushed the stroller with Mom in front of Matthew and Angel. Matthew was holding Angel’s hand. Everyone headed for the house. At the bedroom door, Ivan opened the door and took Mom and the babies in. Matthew went through the door frame but Angel let go of Matthews hand because her legs would not work.
It was the strangest thing that hand ever happened. I could not pick my feet up to go in the door. No matter how much I tried my legs would not work. Matthew turned around and said come on in and I will shut the door. I looked down at my feet in disbelief. I couldn’t pick up my feet no matter how I tried. I looked up at Matthew and said I can’t. Matthew didn’t believe me and said, just pick up your feet and come in. I tried again. I said I have tried but my legs don’t work. Matthew said, step backwards. I said, oh. Ok. I stepped backward
He then said, your legs work so come in. I thought, ok.
I step forward but when I was in the door frame my legs stopped working again. I looked at Matthew and said, I can’t get through the door. Matthew said, what do you want to do. Do you want me to pick you up? I thought about saying yes when I had trouble breathing. So I said, no. Matthew said, should I call the doctor. I said, could we go to our old room for tonight and call the doctor? Matthew turned to Mom and said, we are going up stairs for tonight. Would you and Ivan bring the twins? Mom said, sure. Matthew took my hand and everyone went to the elevator. We went upstairs and into the old bedroom. I felt fine, good. I told Matthew I was really sorry. I didn’t understand. Matthew took his phone and called Dr. Walton. The Dr. Walton said, he would be over soon.
When Dr. Walton came Matthew put us in the office so Dr. Walton and I could talk. The doctor asked what happened?
I explained that I couldn’t walk through the door. My legs didn’t and I could not pick up my feet. It was crazy. My legs would not work. When Matthew offered to carrying me to bed, I couldn’t breath. I ask Matthew if we could come up here. Dr Walton asked, how do you feel now? I replied, fine. Dr. Walton said, what do you remember about what happened? I said, I remember waking up and one of those men was asking another man if he could have one of the twins. Then the four men picked up Matthew’s dead body and started carrying Matthew out the door. I don’t remember anything else after that. Dr. Walton said, do you remember killing those men? I said, no. I remember waking in the hospital and seeing Scott. I thought Matthew must have never come back and I might be married to Scott? Dr. Walton asked, Did you know Scott saved the twins. I said, I heard that and am grateful. I would not want any harm to come to them. Dr. Walton asked, Do you love them? I said, I don’t feel like their mother and I have no feelings toward anyone, and I don’t feel I belong here. Dr. Walton said, this type of thing happens to a lot of people who have had a terrible thing happen. You mind is trying to protect you by having you forget what happened. See Matthew and thinking he was dead. Thinking they were going to take your babies. It takes time to get over something like that. What you went through. You killed those men and some day you will remember. I want you to take your pills and get as much rest as you can. Please, be kind to Matthew because he went through it also. Try to think about what you say to him because he loves you very much. Can you do that? This will pass. I said, yes. Dr. Walton opened the door and had Matthew come in. Matthew sat down and doctor told Matthew I had a bad case of PTSD. The doctor said, She thought you were dead and they were taking the twins. I will take time for her to get over it. Have her meals brought to the room for now so she can get more rest. I will have a talk with her everyday for now.
Matthew said, I didn’t think she could get something like that? The doctor replied, well, she is a women, she is human and it was a big shock seeing carry you off and thinking you were dead. Dr. Walton said, if no one has any questions I will see you tomorrow. He got up and Matthew stood up and shook his hand. Matthew said, Thankyou. Matthew let the doctor out and then asked me if I I could eat some dinner. We went to the bedroom where Mom was with the children. I looked at Mom, the babies and Matthew thinking I have to try harder to get back to normal.