The nurse came with breakfast and woke me up. She put it on my bed tray and said, I needed to try and eat something. I had a bad night. It was not the taking care of the babies, it was the sick to my stomach and the fog I was in. It was hard to think. When I would sit on the edge of the bed I couldn’t think. I was like a veg head. I said to the nurse, I will get up in a minute and eat. I shut my eyes and fell back to asleep. Matthew went to the bathroom and while he was in there the nurse who took care of the babies came in to check on them. She looked in their beds and the baby girl was sleeping peacefully. The baby boy was not in his bed. She went over to me and it was clear to see I didn’t have him. She looked around and back at the bed. She started to the door when Matthew came out of the bathroom. She said to Matthew, Where is the baby boy? Matthew said, what? She said, he is not in his bed. Matthew’s eyes started to water and his throat tightened up so he couldn’t swallow. Flashes of when his first son and I where kidnapped went threw his mind. Matthew and the nurse went over to the baby beds and looked. Both babies were sleeping soundly. The nurse said, I am so sorry. I don’t understand I could have sworn he was not in there. Matthew sat on his bed and said, thank God. She said to Matthew, I will check more carefully from now on and left the room. Matthew was looking over at the babies and starting to recover. Then he thought, Oh shit. He is truly Angel’s child. When he was feeling better he got up and went over to me and woke me. He said, you should try to eat something to keep your strength up for the babies. I looked at him and said, you are right. I sat up and tried to eat.
Down stairs in Scott’s room where he was strapped to the bed, he heard a baby cry. He opened his eyes to see a baby between his body and his right arm. He kind of laughed and shut his eyes. He thought I should never drink Everclear it makes me hallucinate. He thought the baby is not real. Laughing he said to himself, watch. He looked at the baby and said. You are not real. So go away. The baby disappeared. He laughed and said, I must still be drunk. He laughed again. He shut his eyes and went back to sleep.
Once I started to eat I was feeling better and able to sit up. My nurse came in to check to see if I had eaten anything and said, my doctor had set up an exam for me in a couple of hours and Dr. Walton was going to come see me after lunch. I thanked her and shut my eyes thinking I should rest until I need to feed another baby. Matthew said, he had to check on something and would be back soon.
Matthew opened Scott’s door to see how he was doing. Scott opened his eyes and said, well if it isn’t the asshole who put me here. Scott had the look of I want to kill in his eyes. Take these restraints off so I can kill your ass. Matthew just looked at him. Scott then said, what makes you think you can desert your family and then just waltz back in here and say I am home. Matthew said, I am sorry you are having a hard time with this my brother. Scott yelled at Matthew, She is mine. The children are mine and your are dead. Let me up from here and I will kill you. You fucking ass hole. Matthew didn’t move and just looked at him. Scott continued to yell. I made love to her every night you were gone. We lived as husband and wife. Those children are mine. Even Hunter knows who her daddy is. Scott was so mad. He was trying to get out of the restraints. He was so mad he was almost forming at the mouth. He started screaming, I am going to get out of here and kill your ass. Angel doesn’t love you and neither do the kids. So don’t think for a second you can have them. Matthew started out the door. Scott yelled, that’s right mother fucker just walk away. Your nothing but a chicken shit. Matthew asked the guard if the doctor had seen Scott yet and the guard said, no, but he is on the doctor’s scheduled. Matthew said, thankyou. Scott is not in his right mind so what ever you do don’t take those restraints off. The guard said, yes sir. As Matthew was walking back to Angel’s room he was hurting. Scott had caused him pain in his heart. Every time Scott would yell at him, it was as if Scott had put a screw in Matthew heart and was turning it. He tried not to let it bother him, but he couldn’t shake what he said, were the babies his?
Dr. Walton walked into Scott’s room. He said to Scott, one of the doctor’s told me you had a problem and was down here. Scott looked at him and said, Matthew put me here. Dr. Walton said, How are you today? Scott said, well you can see. Dr. Walton said, Why did he put you here? Scott said, Matthew came back even thought he is supposed to be dead and wants to claim Angel. You know I love her and can’t let him do that. I was going to kill him until he put me here. Dr. Walton said, Well she is his wife and he is the father of her children. Scott said, yes but he deserted them. He can’t have them back. Scott was starting to get very upset again and wanted out of the restraints. Scott yelled at the doctor, let me out of these fucking things. Dr. Walton said, I am going to get the your doctor to give you something so we can talk about what has happened. Scott said, that figures. You are going to drug me so Matthew can claim Angel and the kids. The doctor said, no its just I can’t talk to you like this. I will be back later.
Matthew called Carlson and said I need to set up an appointment with Conner. Can you arrange that? Carlson said, yes. How about after lunch? Matthew said, that would be great. Matthew went back to Angel’s room and she was doing better. There was a nurse there helping her.
At lunch I was feeling much better. The next time a baby cried and Matthew handed him to me Matthew said, let’s go see your beautiful ma, ma. Matthew was trying to be so sweet to me and it was helping.
Dr. Walton came in and Matthew said, he had to go meet with Carlson. I talked to the doctor a long time telling him I love Scott and this whole thing is making me sick. I can’t stand to see Scott hurt. He said, he had been to see Scott and he was in one of the hospital beds because he was having a hard time with it also. He said, it would take time for Scott also but he has to understand Matthew is your husband and the father of your children. We talked a lot about Matthew and the Dr. said that a monks life had a lot of pain in it everyday. That pain changes a man. That Matthew needed time to find himself again. A lot has changed with him but now he no longer had that pain every day he will start finding himself again. He will never go back to the man he was when he left but he loves me and kids very much. He just needs time to show it. I agreed with everything the doctor said. Dr Walton said, he was coming to see me everyday for awhile.
Matthew came in to Carlson’s office to meet with Conner. He said to Conner he was so glad to see him. Conner didn’t recognize him at first. Matthew said, he was sorry they called him but the people he was with started telling everyone he was dead for their own protection. He said, too many people were looking for me and they got really worried the wrong person would show up. I didn’t know they were doing this or I would have come home. Conner said, he was just glad Matthew was alive. He said, when he showed up it wasn’t anything he expected. He said, he had no idea Angel was pregnant, but this experience had helped him get over his wife. Before he came here he was in such pain from the loss of his wife and just mopping around the house. He said he became fond of Angel and was hoping she would marry him. He said, it was going to take a while to get over her. Matthew thanked him for coming and it was nice that he had a good friend he could depend on. They talked about his job and Matthew said, why don’t you come see the babies tomorrow? Then we can have lunch out at the pool and talk about old times. Conner said, that sounded great. He wanted to know where Matthew had been and why he had changed so much. Just then Dr. Walton called Carson and said, he wanted to see Matthew as soon as possible. Carlson said, he is sitting across from me and he would send him right over.
At Dr. Carlson’s office Matthew talked to him for over an hour about himself, Angel, Scott and Conner. Dr. Walton told Matthew he needed to be patient with Angel. That she need time to adjust to everything that has happened. That she was devastated when she heard the news of his death. Dr. Walton said he wanted to see Matthew everyday for awhile. Matthew felt better after he left.
When Matthew returned to my room I looked at him and thought about everything Dr. Walton had said. I said, Matthew could I have a kiss? Matthew gave a little smile. Came over and gave me a nice kiss. He looked at the baby I was feeding and said, she is so beautiful. I ate a good amount of my dinner and was feeling good when I went to sleep. Maybe its true the sun will come out tomorrow.