The second night the baby had to sleep on Matthew’s chest again. I think she was hearing his heart beat and that made her feel safe. I looked at Matthew when he put the baby on his chest and his right arm around her so she wouldn’t far off. It was so beautiful to see him taking care of this child. I said, “They told me I had to watch out because you might replace me for a younger woman but I didn’t know she would be this young.” He gave me a big smile and I returned a big smile. I told him I love you and I would have to turn over on my left side or I might pee in the middle of the night because the Wyatt would be sitting on my blatter. I said I love you and turned over with my back to them. I hadn’t forgotten the night he was trying to wake me up because I was peeing on everything. He had gathered the sheet up and stuck it between my legs trying to keep it off the bed. I was always careful after that. In the mornings Matthew would tell me how much he loved me and he would also talk to Wyatt telling him not to be jealous. He would say he had more than enough love to go around.
The next morning I was sitting in the chair giving the baby a bottle when I heard Matthew in his office screaming in anger at someone on the phone. Every vulgar word came out of his mouth. He definitely wanted the guys head. Part of what he said was. Matthew said, ” You have a lot of nerve calling me.” The man on the phone said, “I thought you might of got someone out?” Matthew said, “You stupid ass shit. I was walking across the street from the building to pull your guy out when you fucking people started to blow the place way. If I had been just two or three seconds earlier I wouldn’t be walking this earth because you stupid assholes couldn’t wait 5 fucking minutes for your guy. You assholes were suppose to wait for my fucking signal. I thought I was not going to make it out alive. I am so glad I have a good team who pulled me out.” Man on the phone, “We are really sorry about.” Matthew replied, “Sorry, sorry is what you have to say about your fucking incompetence. Don’t ever call me again. If you do I will come there and separate your head from your body. I have put the word out about what happened and I think you are going to find it hard to find anyone to ever work with you again.” Matthew ended the call.
A couple of weeks later it was getting toward the end of my pregnancy. I wasn’t feeling well. I had become very irritable all the time. I was snapping and arguing with everyone. Matthew told me everyone was on high alert because of my safety. I started arguing with Matthew that I was fine and I didn’t think he needed to worry. He took me and put me in the bedroom chair. He put both hands on the chair, leaned over looking me in the face. Matthew said, “When we got married you promised to listen to me and not argue with me. Are you going back on your word? I looked at him as things rolled around in my head with oh shit. I am destroying everything I have. Why am I doing this? I did promise I wouldn’t argue. I said, “No, I am sorry. I didn’t realize I was being so difficult. Matthew said, “I saw you snap at Amy yesterday. I think you owe her an apology. Why are you being so difficult to get along with? I looked up at him and said, ” I am so sorry. I haven’t been feeling well lately and I am just so irritable.” Matthew said, “I want you to promise me you will not argue with me on anything. It is my job to protect this family and if I tell you to do something I need you to do it.” I said, “Your right and it will not happen again. I love you and I don’t want you to be unhappy with me. You have given me a life beyond my wildest dreams. With children and your mom is so wonderful.” Matthew stood up, “Alright then I am going to have Amy look you over and take a blood test to see if the doctor sees anything. Also I think I have not been giving you enough affection lately and I will take care of that. I am not going out of town to work because I want to be by your side in case you go into labor. So, if you need me I will be here.” He gave me a kiss and called Amy. Amy came over and I told her I was so sorry I had been acting so hatefully to everyone and could she forgive me. I also asked her to say something if I start any shit like that again. I told her I really appreciate everything she does for me. Amy was happy with my apology and started checking me out. Cindy came to help with little Hunter and Matthew went to security to do some work. Amy took some blood, then called and had someone pick it up. Amy said I don’t see anything unusually in your readings. You don’t have a temperature and your blood sugar is fine. I told her everything was making me irritable. Noise, clothes and even some food. She said, “Maybe you are not getting enough good sleep” I replied, “I am having trouble finding a good way to sleep. I have been tossing and turning a lot.” She said maybe I just needed a few more pillows. She found me two more pillows to see if that helped. I thanked her. She said that the doctor was coming tomorrow to check the baby out again since I only had another month. I thought that was great. If there was a problem he would most likely find it.
The next morning Matthew took my hand and his mom’s hand and we went to the clinic. His Mom, Amy and Cindy caring Hunter came with us this time. Matthew was in a really good mood because him and his men could not find any truth to the rumor about my safety. The whole time the doctor was taking readings Matthew was standing up, holding my hand, his mom’s hand and looking at the monitor. He was grinning ear to ear. You could see the baby really well. His mom’s eyes were wide and she had a big smile. Amy was watching and so was Cindy who was holding Hunter. They also had smiles on their face. Finally the doctor turned the monitor toward Matthew and me so we could see the baby really well. He said to Matthew that it wouldn’t be long before he was a proud father of a baby boy. He said to me that I was going to do really well and would be really happy with the baby. He printed another picture out for us. Matthew looked at it and handed it too his mom. The doctor said I was told you are very irritable. I said, “yes.” He said mothers get anxious about going into labor. But there is nothing for me to worry about. He said he had delivered 100’s of babies and can tell I am going to do fine. We were all in good spirits when we went back to the house. Matthew’s mom kept looking at the picture. She was so excited. It was lunch time so we all went to lunch. I was felling better and thinking that was probably my problem. I was just getting nervous about going into labor. I had been thinking about it a lot. Lunch tasted really good and I ate like a pig again. We all went and sat in the living room and talked a little. Matthew went back to work in security and the four of us tried to find a funny show on tv.