I woke up as usually about 4:30am and took care of the baby. I wasn’t happy. My happiness seem to be gone. I made sure the baby was well taken care of. I even rocked him back to sleep because I love him so much I wanted to cry. When I tried to go back to sleep I couldn’t but didn’t want to get up either. I think I am depressed. I was thinking why am I so depressed. Everything is great but it bothered me that the universe had given me a gift and I couldn’t use it. I must be spoiled. Matthew has made my life so great and now I am whining. Like Scott said, once stop your winning. I got up and took a shower trying to shake this feeling. I couldn’t believe I had turned into a clinging, whining wife. Maybe my blood sugar was low because I was really hungry. I had that feeling I could eat a horse. After my shower and getting dressed I went to the kitchen and asked if they had any chocolate pudding I could eat. The lady was really nice. She smiled at me and handed me a pudding, an orange juice and a chocolate muffin. I said, thankyou. I stuck my head out in the hall and there was Scott reading a book. I went up to him and told him I feel like I am starving and want to cry. The kitchen gave these to me and I wanted you to know. He looked at them and said, Well try eating the muffin and orange juice. And put the pudding away for later. I said, ok. I sat in the family room and ate the muffin and orange juice. I then went back to Mom’s room and put the chocolate pudding in the fridge. I sat in the chair thinking I shouldn’t be hungry I had my Monster Milk earlier. When everyone got up I got the kids ready. Hunter was so cute I just wanted to kiss her over and over. She cheered me up.
At breakfast she was in her high chair next to me with Scott on the other side next to Mom. Hunter didn’t like that. She kept crunching her nose and giving Scott this evil look. I tried to feed her and she would push the spoon away saying daddy. I told her daddy had to work but will be back soon and he is going to be very unhappy to find out you didn’t eat your food. She gave me that evil look. I think she understood everything I said. I drank my milk, orange juice, ate the eggs and bacon but didn’t want the toast or cheese Danish. I offered the cheese Danish to Hunter. She moved back like don’t get that thing near me. Scott reached over and said, I’ll eat it. Hunter’s got really big eyes looking at him reach for the Danish. She quickly grabbed it and chomped down on it. Giving Scott that no way look. I could tell she didn’t really want it she just didn’t want Scott to have it. Scott and I almost laughed.
The rest of the day was pretty much the same as Monday. I took Hunter in the pool for 1/2 hour which was not enough for her. She is turning into a fish. Around 1:30 I was sitting at the table with Hunter in my lap trying to show her how to color. I looked up toward the door at the end of the pool and saw a cloud of what looked like glitter floating across the sidewalk. I went oh, in pain because the flash of light hurt my eye with this stabbing feeling. Scott sitting across from me said, are you ok? I explaining that I had seen something I had never seen before and this glitter cloud or what ever it was hurt my eyes. He looked in that direction and said, I don’t see anything. I said, it’s gone now. He got out of his chair, took out his phone and went to investigate. A while later I saw several workmen over there with Scott and a ladder. I think they were checking out a camera up on the pole. When Scott returned he said, he didn’t find anything and had called Chloe to have her check the camera in that area. She said, it was broken so he had it replaced. Scott said, let me know if you see anything strange like that again. I shook my head and said, yes.
I was sleeping and a little after 11pm I woke up to this terrible smell. I ran to the bathroom and threw-up. It was like someone had not had a bath for weeks. I went out in the hall and saw Scott. I went up to him and sniffed at him. He said, what are you doing? I said, there was this smell like some man who had not had a bath in weeks. Is there anyone else out here because its not you? He said, no. Everything has been really quite. I told him I threw-up and said I think I lost my Monster Milk. He said, well when you feel like it drink another one. I said, ok. I told Scott I wanted to show him something he might be able to use sometime. I took him upstairs and showed him the safe room. I turned on all the monitors and we watched them for a little while and then gave up. Scott asked if he could use the monitors and I said, sure. Ask Chloe to put you on the security system for this room and you can use them anytime you want. The kids and I don’t come up here when Matthew is gone. I headed back to Mom’s room. The rest of the night was fine.